tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57513102011-04-22T07:21:01.466+09:00[musings of some grey matter]Love, is patient and kind.
Love, is unconditional.
Love, is loyal.melissanoreply@blogger.comBlogger13281100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-32495452243353801702006-11-18T17:13:00.000+09:002006-11-18T17:16:45.251+09:00...in her head again.......Hi everyone!I think its abt time, that I moved blog. So please find me at :http://melissadesiree.wordpress.com/ :) Enjoy.melissanoreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-26082856382110405902006-11-18T01:55:00.000+09:002006-11-18T03:07:20.330+09:00I slept in till late today... coz I can feel a flu coming.. and NO NO NO LORD, thts BADDDDDDim really damn worried abt tmr's jam....went for ymm today. Better than being at home, feeling like crap, not being able to practise...I did smth amazing though; i mopped the whole house. W O W. mel mopping the house. SMTH LONG. hahahaa..ymm was beautiful tonite... and freda was there for me again. its melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163708160840698142006-11-17T05:02:00.000+09:002006-11-17T05:16:00.880+09:00WOHOOO! I finished watching GOONG! :))))) Or better known as Princess Hours!!! =)YAY YAY YAY!So so happy i watched it!Also, ive loaded all my songs back into my player! Now its more organised. I named the files properly and alL! HEEE...Kor..... hahaha can u help me find the songs for princess hours online? heh coz i dont know where to get hurhur... u know im dumb with these things heheheWatching melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163700748915992092006-11-17T02:55:00.000+09:002006-11-17T03:21:59.986+09:00Well, I guess one thing is off my mind though im still as broke. But good to noe im starting work again. NEVER SAY DIE. hahaha.Anyway.... went to send lerp off at the airport with d rest earlier today. It was just an excuse to meet up i guess. He and pat went on the same flight. Sighs. Melbourne... I really really want a holiday. Seems like ive been saying tht forever eh? All these lucky people..melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163699697328024042006-11-17T02:46:00.000+09:002006-11-17T02:54:57.356+09:00yeah some photos... tht emily poster was given by joycie.. :)melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163647586754547882006-11-16T12:13:00.000+09:002006-11-16T12:26:26.786+09:00God will make a way, where there seems to be no way...Ive always believed in this.After many nights of sleplessness, many nights of stress, I finally slept well last night. I got home and slept after an hr of tv. Slept till this morning, and woke to the phonecall of my next job. :)Wow. Talk abt God's miracles.I start work on Monday. It's project based. Pay is decent enuff really. 9am-6pm. Job melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163569254091034782006-11-15T14:40:00.000+09:002006-11-15T14:40:54.123+09:00...in her head again.......9 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 219 13 9 19 19 25 15 21melissanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163552311277076962006-11-15T09:52:00.000+09:002006-11-15T09:58:31.303+09:00It's the start of a new day for many. But for me, Im just lucky it's looking up a bit today. Coz after Pat and I got home last night, I felt so tired that I slept straight away, and that was 10.30pm. FIRST TIME EVER in so long....... gawd knows how long. BUT, the not so gd part was, i slept for a more or less solid three hours, till 130am, and woke up. Then after taking some water, I tried to melissanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163534784446646382006-11-15T05:01:00.000+09:002006-11-15T05:06:24.450+09:00Oh but i guess there is one thing worth celebrating today, and that's pat's birthday. We went to miss clarity for dinner, (last min thing since we were both in d area), and I had the most delicious sandwich in the world! Harri u wud be jealous! HAHA. The sandwich was three levels of bread, cut into half diagonally to make two big triangles, and inside were these ingredients: Bacon, lettuce, melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163534329029625982006-11-15T04:51:00.000+09:002006-11-15T04:58:52.793+09:00...in her head again.......Theres alot gg on in my head...Im sorry if i havent been talking much lately, or have appeared uninterested to talk, or have been oddly quiet, or have been unusually nonchalant... which i may not have been at all either; i do not know. But, please be patoent, and understanding. I need your iindness now very much especially at this point.Lord, your lost sheep needs melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163349205426286902006-11-13T01:17:00.000+09:002006-11-13T01:33:25.470+09:00...in her head again.......Wow. So much happened today. In the span of 7 hrs, church people caused me to cry and church people caused me to laugh. isnt it ironic.Ive never realised how committed I am to cd choir till today. And jessy's leaving to me, is my failing as a soprano leader. But I guess wads done is done. I can blame myself and she'll still leave. Maybe then she isnt all tht committed melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163318197541006462006-11-12T16:54:00.000+09:002006-11-12T16:56:37.566+09:00...in her head again.......Sleep has bercome impossible. At least till i pass the morning.I had one hour of "sleep" and I woke up after. For the 4th, 5th day i got to see daybreak again.I continued watching princess hours till 12pm. Then suddenly felt very sleepy, and went to nap. Now im gonna be late for church. great.maybe too much princess hours. had nightmares just now.sighs.p/sL pendulum manmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163266138007776912006-11-12T02:28:00.000+09:002006-11-12T02:28:58.013+09:00News news!November 9, 2006Singapore to legalise anal, oral sex - but only for heterosexualsBy News Editorhttp://www.fridae. com/newsfeatures /article. php?articleid=1800& viewarticle= 1As part of Singapore's first major penal code amendments in 22 years,anal and oral sex in private among between consenting heterosexualadults will soon be decriminalised but the law criminalising sexualacts betweenmelissanoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163266078874156012006-11-12T02:08:00.000+09:002006-11-12T02:27:58.900+09:00Saturday Nov 11 06Today was not bad I guess.I woke, practised for an hr or so, loaded more stuff into my now "brand new" player and arranged with joyce what time to meet. Today was suppose to meet ana, but joyce cud meet me in the same area as my jam session later tht nite so I guess it fit in nicely. :)Met joycie later, and I realised how much I missed her. It hurts me to see her so so so so sadmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163187720308544612006-11-11T03:41:00.000+09:002006-11-11T04:43:50.396+09:00...in her head again.......Friday Nov 10 2006Spent the day alone.My aim to wake up early and set out to do everything wasnt exactly successful.I cudnt sleep last night. It was impossible. In fact I kinda hate sleep now, sort of, coz I begin to worry too much when I sleep. So I stayed up till 8am, after trying to sleep for an hr or so, watching princess hours up to episode 6. Thanks Gerri for yr melissanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163090607835482412006-11-10T01:38:00.000+09:002006-11-10T01:43:27.863+09:00SO PISSED OFF SO PISSED OFF SO PISSED OFF SO PISSED OFFwhy so many different WEIRD ASS HUMAN ISSUES TODAY WHYWHY WHYfirst her fears then her weird atm thing tht happened then my player decided to die on me then his weird ass shite with her i swear tht gurl is more than a handful then later an upset with my close friend... argh HUMANS ARE FUCKED UP ........... ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.we shud just melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163084583939661992006-11-10T00:01:00.000+09:002006-11-10T00:03:03.966+09:00i hate creativei hate creativei hate CREATIVE!~!!!!first time my player ha probs, it died. cudnt work...second time the same fucking thing happenedwanted to send for repair and hey wow, it seems ok suddenlyTODAY IT CANT READ ANYTHING INSIDE. IT APPEARS THT THERES NO MUSIC IN IT?!?!?!?!?!?IT SAYS SELECT MUSIC TO PLAY IN MUSIC LIBRARY. WTF.check information, it says i only have abt 1000mb left... melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163077145454564532006-11-09T21:57:00.000+09:002006-11-09T21:59:05.483+09:00...in her head again.......I spent the whole afternoon practising piano, practising guitar and practising for the gig. ok, at least i did something good for myself.Tmr im gonna head down to two three hotels to apply for banquet, and one for guests relations officer, and then to another cafe nearby.tata time to cook noodles.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1163006754710385702006-11-09T01:28:00.000+09:002006-11-09T02:31:14.183+09:00Today, was tiring. And good I suppose. And sad too.Original intention was for me and Fi to go for an interview and then head to Vivo City.But after some discussion, we felt that that advert looked rather dubious. So we decided to head down to Vivo Vity instead. Fi got a call for an interview in d evening though, and SHE GOT THE JOB! WOHOOo!! Congrats Fi!!!Vivo city, is like non other! It's KLCC melissanoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162926400347715572006-11-08T04:00:00.000+09:002006-11-08T04:06:40.386+09:00...in her head again.......I guess distractions are always good in a way. But because distractions dont take place or rather take place on purpose, the thing u try to distract yrself from becomes the one thing u start to focus more on. However it is still good sort of.Spent today meeting up with fiona, joik, lerp, and don from the band smth evol hahaa.. went to watch Step Up coz they got free melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162887462309715302006-11-07T17:00:00.000+09:002006-11-07T17:23:45.806+09:00...in her head again.......Tried to sleep earlier last night(morning) like 3am, and i just cudnt sleep. Woke up, had some biscuits coz i got too hungry, and then tried to force some sleep to no avail. Woke up again and played guitar till 5ish? I only remember falling asleep when the sky was brighter. Woke at 11, then at 1, thanks to camile's phone call. : ) Yay.While I laid awake trying to sleep,melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162840166627301492006-11-07T03:56:00.000+09:002006-11-07T04:15:09.083+09:00I just watched "50 first dates" on DVD, and Im really wow-ed by it. What are the chances of meeting someone who is willing to be so patient to go all out every day to make u fall in love with him again and again day after day and then slowly try to etch it into yr memory?? His love for Lucy is so admirable. I wonder if it could really happen in real life??? But perhaps it could. Love is really melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162816283036098342006-11-06T21:27:00.000+09:002006-11-06T21:41:19.246+09:00...in her head again.......The most awful feeling in the world, is when deep down u feel so disappointed with yrself, and you know that those who matter the most to you, are also just as disappointed and worried and hurt coz ure hurting yrself... all he had to do was say one line; the one burning line that everyone has been asking me or saying to me...it was quite terrible already it coming from melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162811950475465432006-11-06T20:04:00.000+09:002006-11-06T21:37:10.310+09:00...in her head again.......Church was okayy yesterday. Freda didnt come and I felt a definite piece of the choir missing.Had dinner at his place,(and his mum's cooking is getting more and more delicious) and had a lovely time.(He made the ever so delicious milp-peng for us again!). I'll save the rest of the crap to myself.Before I slept last night, I scrolled thru the numbers in my handphone listmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162675694781483442006-11-05T06:21:00.000+09:002006-11-05T06:29:40.643+09:00I have completed my three new originals :)Here are all my 8 finished originals. no. 6, 7, and 8 proses just refuse to give me any inspiration to write any tunes yet, so u're gonna have to wait. The new ones are 9, 10 and 11.-1. Home To You -V1. You were my HomeSupposed to be a place I knowA place I couldCall my ownV2. But love grows old& Leaves you all alone& tells you you shouldPack up as go[C] melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162662210446924182006-11-05T02:35:00.000+09:002006-11-05T02:43:30.473+09:00...in her head again.......Woke up and practised guitar and piano. I need to work on my playing for both the instruments alot more. I have three new originals, which makes my nineth, tenth and elevnth composition. HAHA. But technically it's 6 done, and two in progess and three still left as proses. I went to watch koff koff at earshot just now. Coincidentally, he is Law's friend, and that would melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162639554668750772006-11-04T20:24:00.000+09:002006-11-04T20:25:54.670+09:00oh yeah dont worrie im feeling better now :) got into the mood to practise so ive been practising my originals on guitar and piano, and working on three new songs! That would make 11 priginals now heeee WHEE.. ok fine, 8 origianls tht have tune LOL hahaha... i gtg.. see ya! :)practising for gig seems abit more difficult..i winder why.. i mean as in, not a problem but some weird phobia hahaha ciao!melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162638806828098422006-11-04T19:59:00.000+09:002006-11-04T20:14:27.743+09:00HOHOHO! Our very own Charles on U TUBE! :)say say say!!!Charles Lim - Lover, You Should've Come OverCharles Lim - Autum LeavesCharles Lim - Wonderwall (Esplanade Waterfront March '06)Charles Lim - Delicate ( this was i think a very very long time ago) hahaamelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162631548207789482006-11-04T17:56:00.000+09:002006-11-04T18:15:40.456+09:00...in her head again.......It's 4.45pm. I just woke up. This feels terrible.I only know that im gonna be practising for gig today, work on my new compositions, and maybe go somewhere and watch a gig again tonite or smth.Last night was really bad. I found myself so upset that I stayed up till morning to watch a DVD, instead of sleeping. I was avoiding my own breakdown, which happened anyway right melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162580518713944672006-11-04T03:55:00.000+09:002006-11-04T04:03:53.176+09:00Guess today hasnt turned out so well.Woke up, and after practising some songs and all, felt tht i needed to go out and go watch some gigs, coz i felt miserable at home. Msg a few people and in d end Kalai and I met up and did some walking around after dinner. Espy's gigs were the cultural shit, which was fucked up. So we walked to Blujaz and watched matrix; of which kalai knows the drummer and melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162579953878700122006-11-04T03:47:00.000+09:002006-11-04T03:52:33.906+09:00... we were msging...and he said maybe he'll see me next weekend, coz he has alot of things to do this weekend... again i think i disappointed myself.. my spirits just fell immediately coz it hurt so much. Its not tht i mind tht he has lots os things to do, but i was looking forward to even if its just an hr for dinner at his plc on sundays like how sometimes we just have no time we'd do tht... melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162543587413762052006-11-03T17:19:00.000+09:002006-11-03T18:21:51.006+09:00Last night I wrote two entries into my jorunal before sleeping. So I shall write soem of it here; the less personal stuff. Technically it was morning when I slept, coz I was listening to Damien Rice over and over and over again, which I will explain in a bit.Hope I start work at Liquid Kitchen soon, Ive not been "not-working" for such a long period of time before. It is rather painful and sad melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162498910648225402006-11-03T02:26:00.000+09:002006-11-03T05:21:50.870+09:00Here are the videos of (1)the songs i did at the previous gig (original artists), (2)some nice damo videos i found, (3)and a few more vids of songs i plan to do... (4) and some random nice others..(i so love the girl who plays cello for Damo.. and seriously how does Lisa sing like that...wow. ) *PLEASE DO WATCH the radio interview, set tht Damien Rice did.. thts really good stuff.*(1): Howie Day melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162488152162389682006-11-03T02:18:00.000+09:002006-11-03T02:22:32.186+09:00...in her head again.......i guess its so easy for those who have someone around them, to fill the hole of emptiness and loneliness. u feel all alone, just turn to them, or spend tht lonely nite with them, cuddle up and feel olrite. tonite, i sit alone, composing two new tunes on the piano. I read alone, I watch movies alone, and theres no one to talk to. I wish u were here tonite. i really melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162481903325094672006-11-03T00:37:00.000+09:002006-11-03T00:38:23.363+09:00...in her head again.......Argh. shdunt have gone out today. why cant i fight myself. but i felt so depressed today. staying home didnt feel right, heading out had sme "nice-ness" abt it, but i felt annoyed at myself for having gone out too.damn you mel.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162465715497316422006-11-02T19:44:00.000+09:002006-11-02T20:10:52.013+09:00haha im quite crazy over rachael yamagata now... shes so real.. in front of her fans, or thru emails. :) HWEE. hahahaa... im just glad that she is as real as any of us. I mean even thru her blogs, u can see, tht she goes thru alot of emotional stuff like us, and she doesnt write pretentiously..melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162406759018775132006-11-02T03:38:00.000+09:002006-11-02T03:45:59.076+09:00...in her head again.......I drifted thru the whole of today. I can either5 choose to feel really terrible and crumble and cry, or be strong and stop the spiral from getting worse.But after drifting thru today, I think i wud disappoint everyone to a high degree if i were to break down and give up.I shud do the opposite and try again, even though ive fallen a thousand times.You never fail to make melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162371463323378022006-11-01T17:53:00.000+09:002006-11-01T17:57:43.366+09:00...in her head again.......Wana wish all students, all the best for the exams.To the o level students, good luck good luck good luckto the a level students, mug mug mug~!to the international students, well, be smart!ok im talking rubbish.Basically, Stef, Mel and Joyce, are all having exams now... wana wish them all the best.. may the Lord be with them thru this.--------i suck. dont i.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162319743957228602006-11-01T03:29:00.000+09:002006-11-01T03:36:29.326+09:00The book Sam bought me.. Im reading it now.First line of the first chapter, which happens to be Love, says : Love is not the stickiest glue that binds two people. Sex is. =)ME NEW DRESS! It looks kinda weird here. Gonna be wearing it with three quarter black pants... it looks wrong here, ahaha The most delicious peanut cake!!! At the market were we first arrived in JB.FIRST stamp on my NEW melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162316693177251152006-11-01T01:09:00.000+09:002006-11-01T02:48:21.913+09:00Tuesday, Oct 31st '06JB DAY!!!!These were the things I tot I would get in JB:my mary janes shoes, socks, harri's little miss sunshine vcd,belt,watch,slippers,and i came back with none. HAHA. Instead I got myself a dress for christmas and gig. gosh. The exchange rate now is crazy. It was quite an experience taking the various buses to the customs and switching buses and all. My passport was a melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162138869128173462006-10-30T01:19:00.000+09:002006-10-30T03:22:43.310+09:00...in her head again.......Today had momentary lows, self given stress, but overall was fabulous :)I shud be contented extra content too personal to blog. TOO BAD. hahaaaLove, melmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162049328025636942006-10-29T00:28:00.000+09:002006-10-29T04:08:04.296+09:00...in her head again.......blardy stupid blogger wont farking post my damn entries.----heres something nice and optimistic! wei likes this alot!!!=)sunny dayssweeping the clouds awayon my way to where the air is sweetcan you tell me how to gethow to get to sesame streetcome and playeverything's a-okayfamily neighbors friendsthat's where we meetcan you tell me how to gethow to get to--sunny melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1162029131953335072006-10-28T18:45:00.000+09:002006-10-29T04:10:57.940+09:00...in her head again....... Saturday, Oct 28th '06 Cereal-tea for breakfast everyday has become delicious.And i realised sometimes we tell the least to those we love, coz we dont want to hurt them, and not becoz they dont mean enuff to us, so we dont tell them things.And sometimes becoz they are burdened enuff, and so we dont want to burden them further.But sometimes they'll be one or two personsmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161894466446236672006-10-27T05:23:00.000+09:002006-10-27T05:27:46.476+09:00...in her head again.......I havent read lerp's blog in a while.. but all these yrs, ive known hes as real as any of us, and as loving as any of us. Pls do read his blog. Its as real as it can get, and inspirational too. btw. he put up some fucking awesome smashing pumpkin u tube videos, so go see. ( his link is under my links)TONIGHT, TONIGHT.I first heard this track, FIRST time, as a cover, bymelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161891553682040642006-10-27T04:32:00.000+09:002006-10-27T04:39:13.736+09:00...in her head again.......U noe smth. All of you shud just tell me how bad I am. Im not such a great vocalists as u all make me out to be. I have a half tone deaf ear, always have probs pitching.I have terrible control, still, and though I have so much emotion, I think sometimes I dont know which parts of the songs to make "dark" and which parts to be sharp and round.Im pissed at myself. Gettingmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161889405421028412006-10-27T03:58:00.000+09:002006-10-27T04:03:25.446+09:00...in her head again.......one third thru season three of scrubs. it gives me some things to think about.what the hell am i doing abt all this.i should be practising or some shite like that now. isnt it.argh.trying to figure this out. one hand, im wanting it all so badly, then why do i seem not motivated enuff to do smth actual, abt it. why. damnit.another gawd damn week gone.I wish I was in a melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161876915731359322006-10-27T00:34:00.000+09:002006-10-27T00:35:15.763+09:00Met Fi at Bedok interchange for dinner. Bought groceries, did some talking at the playground and walked home.Kalai just gave us the tracks recorded at earshot. Im awfully disgusted by myself. GREAT.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161857397829366672006-10-26T17:00:00.000+09:002006-10-26T19:53:12.446+09:00Thursday, Oct 26th 06I would love to be a Lisa Hannigan.I don't mind not having my own album, my own songs, if I get to be a Lisa Hannigan to one voice.Hahah. But othert han that,I'd want to be a Rachael Yamagata, Fiona Apple or Corrinne May. LOL.O . M . G.I have 9 crimes sitting in my computer HURHURHUR. Charles is the KEWLEST SIA. hahaha.Wednesday Oct 25th 06Bumming. Wasting time. (unless deep melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161766103149143332006-10-25T17:44:00.000+09:002006-10-25T17:48:23.186+09:00Last night's first attempt to sleep , failed. So I got up, and went to watch another four episodes of scrubs, which brings me to 15 episodes and couting! Erm, I had the worset nightmares of all nights, last night. I woke up at 10am, and I swear I felt like crying. Ever dreamnt of being murdered?! That tot itself is scary, feeling the person cut you, by knife, and the "murderers" coz there were melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161714665609331722006-10-25T03:28:00.000+09:002006-10-25T03:31:05.610+09:00...in her head again.......Got so bored, I started watching scrubs. ( Yea, managed to get it to work on the comp, and on pat's laptop, Charles :] ) . Pat has been really awesome, and Ive watched season two till episode 11. I relate to quite a bit of the stuff in there. Some people I know dont like scrubs as much as grey's anatomy, coz they find it a bit cocky, but I think both shows bring out melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161692257997017392006-10-24T21:16:00.000+09:002006-10-25T03:28:13.513+09:00...in her head again.......p/s: ive done up my myspace profiles again. ZSo they're all nice. friendster also.erm, think i might change some stuff here, but when ideas are a bit more solid. i'll be getting down to doing a website proper soon. But till then.Wei is back in camp. I hate the saf.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161689807713775452006-10-24T17:59:00.000+09:002006-10-25T03:35:01.336+09:00...in her head again.......Another sucky public holday. Today was worse than yesterday. I went to sleep, with many looming thoughts which caused my sleepless night. I woke up this morning and sat there and thought even more.Im lost. The public holiday sucks as it is. i was reading 8 days and getting more and more annoyed that these celebs get to become deejays just like that! Well, of coz Im suremelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161630501123979092006-10-24T04:06:00.000+09:002006-10-24T04:08:21.150+09:00Here are two photos, from kalai's site... one old pic of my previous earshot gig, and another at art cafe open mic recently.melissanoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161629188170481612006-10-24T03:20:00.000+09:002006-10-24T03:46:28.200+09:00More photos from the gig day. some from wei, some from me, some from harri, and go to kalais site, theres more.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161627584258433552006-10-24T03:18:00.000+09:002006-10-24T03:19:44.283+09:00here are more photos on kalai's site. http://heardrum.multiply.com/photos/album/42melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161626430276942052006-10-24T02:45:00.000+09:002006-10-24T03:00:31.166+09:00...in her head again.......Im PMS-ing right at this moment. Of coz not like real PMS-ing. But thats the term Chelle used that day for a bad mood. Harri is feeling like shite right now as well, so shes gone to sleep. I feel like crap too. Its today, how pathetic-ly we spent it, and then came home and just felt like what the.what am i thinking. its all too good to be true. ah there im just being melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161621063178815932006-10-24T01:30:00.000+09:002006-10-24T01:31:03.230+09:00OMG.Public holidays are SO BORING.what the hell are all of u doing.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161546092330463702006-10-23T04:18:00.000+09:002006-10-23T04:41:32.373+09:00All the photos from lasr night's Sofa Sessions 2 (Oct 21st) Earshot Cafe! Copyright of Harriet Koh and Elvin Lim. : ) Thanks guys.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161544705795978782006-10-23T04:05:00.000+09:002006-10-23T04:18:25.823+09:00WOW.Its been an entire weekend. Im now typing this entry in the wee hours of monday morning, and I wana say that this weekend has been too good to be true. Really. I was very happy this weekend.The gigs went well, for both my band and my dear friends of blackpepper. It went better than expected for all of us. I'll spare u guys all the nitty gritty details and critic that we have already almost melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161414132933324252006-10-21T16:01:00.000+09:002006-10-21T16:02:12.960+09:00IM REALLY VERY NERVOUS TODAY. IM REALLY VERY STRESSED.COZ i cant get my pitch right.Jo Dong was pitch perfect last night. O M G.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161371514166266892006-10-21T04:01:00.001+09:002006-10-21T04:11:54.210+09:00*breathe*THE BIG DAY IS TODAY.GIG DAY.Im a bunch of nerves.YET. Im excited.Lord, Please bless all of us, with perfect pitched vocals, perfect hearing, perfect timing, perfect feelings, and professionalism. Please bless Amanda, Pat, Charles, Wei, Kalai, Chelle, Jas, and Debbz as we give our best tonight.We're all rather anxious. And I really mean all of us.Pleas help calm us, and give us just melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161371392202001432006-10-21T04:01:00.000+09:002006-10-21T04:09:52.246+09:00THE BIG DAY IS TODAY.GIG DAY.Im a bunch of nerves.YET. Im excited.Lord, Please bless all of us, with perfect pitched vocals, perfect hearing, perfect timing, perfect feelings, and professionalism. Please bless Amanda, Pat, Charles, Wei, Kalai, Chelle, Jas, and Debbz as we give our best tonight.We're all rather anxious. And I really mean all of us.Pleas help calm us, and give us just enough melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161327060182855642006-10-20T15:47:00.000+09:002006-10-20T15:51:00.210+09:00O M G HAHAHAThe weirdest most hilarious shite just happened! Wei added a girl sometime ago, using this email: melissa_liaw@hotmail.comWTHELL. U would think this coudlnt possibly be someone, besides me. hahaaAnd this is wad she said to him just now:'你是谁呀？照片上的人是你吗？LOL. WOW. JACKPOT! hahahahahaa.And so, I added her, and had a chat with her. IN ENGLISH BTW. hahahaa. Coz she tot wei was chinese, due melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161324528461218052006-10-20T15:08:00.000+09:002006-10-20T15:08:48.486+09:00oh yeah, and ideas are bullet proof hahaamelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161322588826202202006-10-20T14:30:00.000+09:002006-10-20T14:36:28.850+09:00What are your "before-bedtime" moments like? Are they surreal?Mine are, for sure.My mind somehow goes thru a whole lot of thinking before it decides to shut down. And while its doing that, memories I'd long forgotten, good or bad, start resurfacing. And sometimes, I end up remembering things I dont to remember. Hurtful things. Things I rather not remember about people. Becoz then I remember stuffmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161318106862066352006-10-20T12:17:00.000+09:002006-10-20T13:21:47.143+09:00GOOD MORNING!Im up in the morning!! OMG! :)Actually, initially i wanted to pee la. Then my stomch got wayy too hungry, so no choice, got myself up. KEKEKEKE.:) Hmms, waiting for Wei to msg... had rather light sleep, coz I didnt wana oversleep since we're suppose to go out today! Wow, the way i talk is like d old times ahahhaa. I remember how I used to lose an entire night's sleep, coz I was so melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161280877133895242006-10-20T02:59:00.000+09:002006-10-20T03:01:17.160+09:00heh, oh and, Charles said smth just now before he went off to the dream land; he said im too freindly hahahahahaa. And Just as in Justicia, remember what we were talking abt earlier today? Heh, funny eh. U get that from friends, and I told u so do I, and it was said to me again tonight. Ohwells. heheheheTheres nothing wrong with adding a bit of sunshine to a person's day yea? :)And, really.. im melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161280450605824602006-10-20T02:46:00.000+09:002006-10-20T02:54:10.673+09:00Didi I mention that my adidas bag gave way? :( Very sad, but it was giving way at the sides already. And as if for significance, the strap broke just as I got home yesterday. There goes my adidas. haha.It was a fake anyway. But it bluffed quite alot of people *chuckles*.Just watched V for Vendetta.AWESOME SHITE.Two lines:God is in the rain.You have no fear. You're finally free.O M G.Scares me melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161261474937121292006-10-19T21:34:00.000+09:002006-10-19T21:53:27.580+09:00...in her head again.......Memories are often bittersweet- I was just looking at Harriet's photo gallery for the gezillion time, coz her photos are really awesome, and I always forgot that our photos sat inside her gallery; and she has many more folders of us in her computer-I starred at the photos of us, the times when she caught us both cuddled together, the times we played together as a band, melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161257187886144802006-10-19T20:21:00.000+09:002006-10-19T20:28:07.176+09:00What do any of u do when ure extremely bored????? Shud start giving me a list, so tht i dont tear my hair out. HAHAHA.I have Charles' two seasons of scrubs but i say it all the time i hate watching it in the day and esp alone. At nite, not so bad. I dont really like reading, not in this hot weather coz i'd fall asleepAnd I just cudnt get down to practising u noe! Wanted to go ot. Feel so SLUGGISHmelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161246122447884732006-10-19T17:15:00.000+09:002006-10-19T17:22:02.473+09:00...in her head again.......Oh. Theres smething I like very much about channel starworld. and tht is the serieses they show. HEH. :) Like Desperate Housewives, Grey's anatomy (i gawd damn love after scrubs) and yea scrubs hahaha :)I love the Oprah shows too. Woo. Ahh, I just realizsed Ive become a meiji food freak. I have meiji choc milk, meiji yogurt, in my fridge and i love meiji green tea ice melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161241409977182502006-10-19T16:02:00.000+09:002006-10-19T16:03:30.006+09:00...in her head again.......The nightmares have been coming back, despite getting long hours of sleep. So not nice.really. Wake up feeling awful. Last night's and the previous night's nightmares were all not what I wanted to see.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161197903209759572006-10-19T03:12:00.000+09:002006-10-19T03:58:23.790+09:00Wednesday, Oct 18 06Im gonna keep this real short and sweet, coz im soo sleepy now! BUT! U must know that I had a really gd day today! Yeah! It was sluggish no doubt, but real good too.Woke up, slightly earlier today, and in time to have lunch downstaris and buy some groceries for home: ) I ate ah-bo-ling! My favooouurriiiitte! I had chee kewh too, but the chee kweh here sucks. DONT EVER EAT IT. melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161033346858390152006-10-17T06:11:00.000+09:002006-10-17T06:18:54.056+09:00Ive never really looked into the lyrics of this song, even though I used to hear Charles sing it so much during the gig days. But I always knew it had some tremendous impact on me, and meaning. I felt alot of indescribable pain listening to it. Then Charles did a great cover of it recently, and I finally decided to really take a look at the words. Oh good Lord.I cannot begin to explain how much Imelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1161024753448336812006-10-17T03:13:00.000+09:002006-10-17T05:19:48.690+09:00...in her head again.......Monday, October 16th 2006I write tonight, with alot of pain, with a reflective mind, after a day I have made important decisions,and a day after talking to a few important and random people in my perplexed life. And in the quietness of tonight, I offer up this pain and everything on my mind that's just seriously out of my control; that badly needs understanding, but is melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160850852394454112006-10-15T03:32:00.000+09:002006-10-15T03:34:12.396+09:00...in her head again.......horrid. horrid. horrid.just wana tear my damn hair out.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160850528466059232006-10-15T03:28:00.000+09:002006-10-15T03:28:48.466+09:00...in her head again.......someone.. help." i struggle with this so much."melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160850254710225252006-10-15T03:19:00.000+09:002006-10-15T03:24:58.746+09:00Okies, So wishing Rach sweet 16th again. I hope she had a good time tonight.Im sorry if i didnt participate much tonight. I was particuarly distracted.Tonight was emotionally horrible for me. No one really knows what went on with during the party and in between the end of party and supper which i eventually went along with.I dont know why it was so hard tonight. Really tore me.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160813736608060982006-10-14T17:08:00.000+09:002006-10-15T03:17:54.483+09:00Did I mention that the gig is gonna be great? hahahahaa.Im not gloating OKKKK, this is called keeping the spirirts UP! But I have been practising and I do think its gonna be fine. Jammin with Charlie tmr afternoon, and then on Monday with the band again. Think everything should be fine. Blackpepper has been busy rushing jams too, and Deborah has got quite a list of songs for us too. Let's cross melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160763404107616662006-10-14T03:00:00.000+09:002006-10-14T03:16:44.136+09:00Friday, Oct 13th 06What a splendid night at work. Fantastically busy, great customers, lots and lots of food went in and out, the place, upstairs and downstaris were so busy. I worked till 1130, and was allowed to go back! Heh, Charlie and Randy came to eat!! : ) Table 44, woppie heh. 'Then Amanda Tee and her girlfriends came to eat at table 44 too! QUITE ironic! :) And Eunice, the girl I was melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160673155358240912006-10-13T01:50:00.000+09:002006-10-13T02:12:36.576+09:00Thursday, Oct 12 06Today was super awesome, refreshing and super irritating.It was radio day : )OMG. I went to mediacorp studios radio station 93.8fm. AHHHHHHH. It's just, as we (debbz, pat and myself) were awaiting the interview, I watched eugene loh give the hourly news update, and melanie, help him with stuff in their freezing studio. It was so awesome. My hands turned cold when they melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160596051286280162006-10-12T04:28:00.000+09:002006-10-12T04:49:34.616+09:00...in her head again.......ohmygoodness. I just JUST came out with this, like on the spot.-Nothing now- (c) melissa liaw 2006nothing i can do will change you now.nothing u can do will move me nownothing we shud do shud be done nowcoz nothing, nothing is left of us nowand i shud have knownbefore we beguni shud have knownwhat we'd becomei shud have knownwhen u leftthe first timei shud've goneand melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160594874190685432006-10-12T04:26:00.000+09:002006-10-12T04:27:54.223+09:00Oh yes, I cleaned my rm! YAY! hahahaha.My goodness. I didnt realise i know THAT MANY friends whoose birthdays are ALL IN OCTOBER?!?! Theres more than i tot! WAH. ... sheesh... i didnt realise i knwo so many libras.. tht kinda sucks... seriously...anyways, im pooped. gonna sleep. ZZZ.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160592791894674372006-10-12T02:50:00.000+09:002006-10-12T03:53:12.370+09:00Okay, I have two days of entries to type, and im too damn lazy, so let me sum it all up ok! (coz i need to sleep early tonite... hurhur)Tuesday, Oct 10 06It was zell's bday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZELL!Monday night, I felt like I was gonna die half way trying to sleep. Second night I'd felt this way. Went out with Harri and I felt ok. Not even three hrs later, I felt like I was gonna collapse. Went melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160387929305896432006-10-09T18:50:00.000+09:002006-10-09T18:58:49.306+09:00Monday, October 9th 06HAPPY BIRTHDAY! My dear mak jun hua! We go such a long way back!! Now u are LEGAL to watch yr RA movies, etc etc all yr firty stuffs HAHAHAHAH : )Junhua was my poly classmate for three yrs, and by some unfortunate luck, HHAHA, we both ended up working together for every gawd damn project in schl. I SWEAR i was sock sick of him then HAHAHA : ) he felt the same way too. melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160386925427404312006-10-09T18:40:00.000+09:002006-10-09T18:42:21.110+09:00Humping Animals!Funny CatsLaughing Babies (personally i find it kinda freaky)melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160331224308807092006-10-09T01:32:00.000+09:002006-10-09T03:13:44.520+09:00...in her head again.......SUNDAY OCT 8 06JAGGED LITTLE PILLS[NOTE:Today's thoughts are in random order, and not in sequence.]I hope everyone else that I know, is doing and feeling and coping better than I am. This place, this blog isnt just about me, and I want you to know I worrie for each and everyone of you too.FEAR. Somehow very fearful for my coming gig. On one hand, insistent tht when the melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160250993094287552006-10-08T04:39:00.000+09:002006-10-08T04:56:33.123+09:00Saturday, Oct 7th 06It's Saturday. Its two days after his birthday, HAHA. so what heh.But it's a SATURDAY!!! =)Went to Blujaz to work tonight, and was lucky to get to work till 2am!!!! I mean, I wish I didnt have to la, coz its really quite tiring, but I do love working there alot! The environment is awesome and with Aya Sekine playing till 1ish am, whoose complaining man? YEA! Its like killing melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160158689603015852006-10-07T02:42:00.000+09:002006-10-07T03:18:09.856+09:00...in her head again.......FRIDAY 06 OCTi lost my job.again.i was starting to become someone i cud be proud of, and now. im nothing again.im not sure anymore what God really wants me to do.Marcus asked me to join Youth Mentors. I really want to. thts on wednesdays.Marlene asked me to join Youth Arise. I really want to. thts on sat nites.Jem asked me to stay on with YMM. And I wish I can say yes melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160070419083222722006-10-06T02:45:00.000+09:002006-10-06T03:01:46.086+09:00Introducing my tuition kid - Jackie Chin, p2, st stevens primelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1160070004345002612006-10-06T02:11:00.000+09:002006-10-06T03:38:27.016+09:00Thursday, Oct 5th 2006Another tough day. Woke up, rushed out, and got to work early for once. Quite proud of myself for that. Damn damn damn tired today, coz the period was draining me alot too. That added to the lack of sleep and flu. I was happy to go to sleep after talking to Charles about the gig last night, though. And I sorta sorted it out again, and I think he's right that I should put in melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159982908933849702006-10-05T02:28:00.000+09:002006-10-05T02:28:28.936+09:00=) Okie, Good night. : )melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159981687398889342006-10-05T01:55:00.001+09:002006-10-06T03:14:04.790+09:00Introducing ..Yik Meng, p4, Tao Nan PriSiu Whye, his younger brother, p2, Tao Nan PriLoveena Too (my bosses's daughter) p5 - KCP.Chew Weh, p2 Tao Nan Pri... MY FAVOURITE KID. I LOVE THIS BOY. hahaaCylus Chua, p2, Stamford Pri. Hes.. err.. different.melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159980816750237262006-10-05T01:41:00.000+09:002006-10-06T03:18:20.256+09:00Here are my Haig girls!Estelle, p1Celine, p1Tina, p2melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159979249109962552006-10-05T01:20:00.000+09:002006-10-06T03:20:45.993+09:00Introducing the kids I teach-Gabriel, p2 - Kong Hwa PriSean The, p2- my cute one in the morning from Maha Boodhi PriMichelle Lim, p2- My celever little girl from Tao Nan Prithose are my morning kids... and this is Michelle's elder brother:Benjamin Lim, p4, Tao Nan Primelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159978669021236882006-10-05T01:03:00.000+09:002006-10-06T03:40:07.496+09:00These are some photos from the day with Harri, but mainly some words from our scrabble game, and her very own 3D project a lamp!!! CHECK IT OUT!Kewl huh? =) UnlightedLightedHOOOOORRRNNY!FEAR.DIET, I must? hahaL-O-V-Emelissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159977740338010412006-10-04T23:30:00.000+09:002006-10-05T01:02:21.083+09:00Wednesday, October 4th 2006Managed to wake up early enuff to catch the 8.20 bus 14, which reaches work exactly at nine am, which always still makes me late by 4 mins byu the time I clock in. Work was pretty alright today, and there was a gd stall of time due to Cylus's kentuckey birthday bash. Janessea took half day leave, and that rbings me to the point that I face every morning when I wake- I melissanoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159889551948811622006-10-03T23:40:00.000+09:002006-10-04T00:32:32.313+09:00Tuesday, 3rd October 2006Truly, madly, deeply.... EXHUASTED.Gosh. I felt like I was TORN out of bed this morning. and I DIDNT HEAR THE ALARM AGAIN!Rushed like a mad dog, and was frustrated with myself as I was ten mins late AGAIN. Argh fuck. Really damn blardy tired. The kids were tiresome as well. They gave me a bad headache with the non-stop noise they were making, and the unnecessary comments melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159811258814603282006-10-03T02:09:00.000+09:002006-10-03T02:56:52.123+09:00Monday, October 2nd 2006!Wow, October already! Amazing!!! : ) This year has really just ZIPPPPED vroooom passed like that!!! Anyway, HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO ALL KIDS!!! hahahaha! It was A VERYYYY good and productive day today! Harri prob doesn't need to read this coz she spent the whole day with me! Heh. I planned out properly what to do, and I am very proud to say that I achieved everything!! :)melissanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5751310.post-1159770735311534542006-10-02T15:28:00.000+09:002006-10-02T15:32:15.336+09:00I coughed my way to sleep last night. Seriously. I dont know what was irritating my throat, but I kept coughing and coughing and coughing.ARGH.hahahahaYAY. Today I plan to go to the bank, get a new card,update my bank bk, check my balance, top up my ez link card, buy asses bks for my new tuition kid, go to watsons and buy new shoe soles, vitamins, and 4A Batteries, and return my lib bk tht is melissanoreply@blogger.com0