and she dreams again...

It was a very bad nite at work today
i was scolded by both bosses. i dont mean like those small little scoldings, i mean like realli big scolding, near to "you are fir3ed" scolding. from the time i woke up today, which was 3+, i felt very weird. something just wasnt rite. i wasnt sure whether it was just becoz i overslept, that maybe i was still way tired from yesterday, but i felt smth was absolutely not rite. i got to work, and pple were all in weird moods. wendy was extremely hot-tempered today. i knew smth was gonna happen tonite...and i was afriad i was gg to fuck up for her to see. i realli did. i just wasnt myself today--felt damn werid, like i told the rest. it wasnt becoz i wasnt feeling well, however, my eyes have been feeling awfully heavy and i just felt weird. anyway, the mistake i made today, was becoz i misunderstood the bosses, didnt consult them about it, coz i tot tht was what they meant, hence, i got the shit manager in trouble and the big boss came hammering after both of us and another poor staff tht got involved. i shld be terminatd by now. was so fucked tonite. i wasnt angry--but i was very upset abt it. one of the most senior riders, whoose known me since i was in the other branch, he told me not to be angyr weith the bosses. im not. why shld i? im just very upset.

whats wif today? i could have joined my frens to watch matrix again,.but i decided to go work instead.

my freind's father just passed away shortly after i got off work.

why? i feel like bursting out and crying. since last nite, ive been feeling this overwhelming sense of whatever you wana call it-- just feelings of smth happening, feelings of smth not being rite. i hope im not getting some freaking sixth sense.

im gg slp. i hate it today. sorry.