and she dreams again...



What's love?
When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.
At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh,
your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.
Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival,
your phone is quiet.
You are desperately waiting for the call!
At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from
that special someone than other many long e-mails,
you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the
messages in your answering machine because of one message
from that special someone, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would
not hesitate to think of that special someone.
Then, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love.

...got this from an email my friend sent...such absolutely good timing isnt it....


i feel like crying...coz everything is fake and i know it...the personal happiness will never be there...till the day i get to be with him....and it hurts very bad....and i did smth tht will prob make him not wana tell me things private anymore...why was i so stupid? ...the rash actions are coming back...my old bad stuff is coming back...no....

bro said if i feel like hes more deserving of someone better...then ive already given up...but why don't you try loving loving someone for more than two yrs...and the other doesn't know...i can't, i can't let go, and it's very painful...has a part of me given up? or has a part of me become too obessed with wanting it so bad?

but yet...if it's now...i'm not ready...and i doubt he is either...but then why do i want it so bad...i know, that i have all the ans..and waiting and waiting is a skill i cannot master in such a situation. Yet i have to.

I'm being ignored by you
you tok to everyone else but me...
we prob only had a few words tonite...
and i can't take it...
and yet the last thing i would do to you..is hurt you...
and i think i must haf already in some way...coz i seem to want to be more than friends with you...
i'm sorry, baby.