arghh... msn is having problems.. alotta people cant log in.. on web messenger and i see NO ONE grr...

anyways, yesterday's post was crazy and Im sure all of you know tht. When i thought back abt it today, I was wondering how im possibly gonna chase when hahaha, it will be so weird.. hahaha..s o anyway... just keeping the happy happy feeling gg... i think we're only happiest when we actually are in person spending time tog.. somehow during the weekdays the "connection" not so good la. HAHAHAHA.

Mmm, i broke out in rashes this morning... yet another day of work missed. Why wont they just fire me so tht i can work elsewhere???!?! I think (wait lemme count) ive gone to work seven days out of the sixteen days im suppose to have been there. Im struggling with trying to overcome it. I remember charles said tht we all like wei, have to face it, and not run from it. and im down to less than three digits already... i really shudnt be missing any more work. But its incredible how my body and mind go against gg to work. I really struggle with the psychological and physical barriers. This morning, I tried to go, but i kept itching and itching and fear overwhelmed me. The very thought of the work put me off, which is wrong. I watched singapore dreaming, and people are trying so hard to make ends meet, and here i am, needing all the money i can get, and yet I choose to not go. Very disappointed with myself again.

I stayed at home and cooked noodles for dinner. Really cant go out and buy now...
theres nutting to do online... perhaps i shud go read my bk and do some ironing.. or watch a movie or practise songs or start doing up my website.. but im not very motivated to do anything at the moment. LOL.

OMG WEI'S ONLINE! :) hahahah YAY! harri hurry up come online pls!!!

I think I shall go find some u-tube videos to pass time.. very lazy to do other things hahahahaa