... we were msging...and he said maybe he'll see me next weekend, coz he has alot of things to do this weekend... again i think i disappointed myself.. my spirits just fell immediately coz it hurt so much. Its not tht i mind tht he has lots os things to do, but i was looking forward to even if its just an hr for dinner at his plc on sundays like how sometimes we just have no time we'd do tht... ouch. i was telling harri tht i missed him. Just looking forward to him coming out this whole week... not tht it is any of his worry tht i shud miss him... ouch.

isnt it crazy how one person can make u so happy and so sad?

i was just thinking of tickling him like mad when i see him this weekend, and then he'll give this laugh and this wide smile on his face when he cannot tahan the tickle, and he'll cringe and all his muscles will tighten and he'll keep telling me to stop... haha.. i was hoping i cud watch him to sleep again... and hug him like i always do...
oh well.. looks like its gonna be a very unbearable weekend.