and she dreams again...


It's a habit now...I don't know...to feel low and emo at night. Talking to sis ain't helping much...not that i don't appreciate it..even chatted with half bro earlier...but I think I miss him very badly. I can't get near him, I can't find out what he's doing. I can only wait for that short while on sunday, to see him. I miss him. I don't know how long more I can take it. I just really wish I can go out everyday like sis, to town, with baby, or wth other friends...and not worry that i'm not home much. Being sick now is one thing...but I kmpow even after i recover i won't be out much. Ive ask theresa for a job...hope i get it...i'm getting too bored. I did manage to play piano today. And I haf started to read my sroty book. Quite happy about that. But this hols is making me feel sad. Specialist is down in the dumps too. Listening to 933 now. It's my fav station, besides 987 or 95...coz it always has nice songs, esp at nite. But, it's also the quiet moments tht go with the music...that amkes me feel down. Its a stupid excuse la.