The heart that truly loves never forgets.


Jeanette Winterson Quotes
Loving you is like lifting a heavy stone. It would be easier not to do it, and I'm not quite sure why I'm doing it. It takes all my strength and all my determination, and I said I wouldn't love someone like this again. Is there any sense in loving someone you can only wake up to by chance?

I want to be able to call you. I want to be able to knock on your door. I want to be able to keep your key and give you mine. I want to be seen with you in public. I want there to be no gossip. I want to make supper with you. I want to go shopping with you. I want to know that nothing can come between us except each other.

I keep telling this story - different people, different places, different times - but always you, always me, always this story, because a story is a tightrope between two worlds.

There is no greater grief than to find no happiness but happiness in what is past.

The past is magnetic. It draws us in. We cannot help ourselves, and as with other things that we cannot help in ourselves, we make up elaborate explanations, reasonable, rational explanations, to chant away the powerful things that don't belong to us.

Love has got complicated, tied up with promises, bruised with plans, dogged with an ending that nobody wants - when all love is, is what it always is - that you look at me and you want me and I don't turn away.

I'm looking for something, it's true. Looking for you, looking for me, believing the treasure is really there. I knew from the moment I saw you (as the saying goes) how it was going to begin.
I don't know how it is going to end.

I suffer. I intentionally put myself in the way of suffering as a test, as a measure, to see what will be drawn up - to stop myself from closing up. I don't want to close the wound.

Hi Mel, How are you?
Are u still crying over him? U know that it's just no point anymore, and that it's really ended.
I know it's hard mel, but you gotta lift yrself up, coz all your friends and yrself are finding yrselves. It is a period of too many changes. Only u can love yrself agaun and put a smile on yr face again.
Remember, and brush it off soon, before the tears drop again. It's ok mel, to miss him, to be angry with him, to think of the million things u guys did together, to remember his smile or laugh and the way he looked at u when u woke up with his arms around u.
mel, ure worth so much more. it's difficult now. everything is still not quite there. But u gotta be strong babe.
Things will come round, slowly and hopefully, still keep some light shining at the end of yt own tunnel. I know the walking gets tiring, and sometimes u just bend down and cry, with all these burdens on u, but just pray tht HE will lighten yr load.
whats done is done. whats past is really become a past already dear.
Get some rest. ure sleeping mucht oo little and eating much porrly. dont do this to yrself.

Go sleep now. God will grant u a job if u try and pray. God will heal u, in due time. If u and him or him and u are meant to, it'll all come round. cry if u need to, but i think uve cried enuff. take the pain and throw it out.

go rest mel.

love, myself.