I have alot to write.
I have three entries. Sunday Monday and Tues. so which do u want first? hahahahaha

Ok i think i'll start with sunday.

Sunday-->
I couldn't wake to meet Charles in d end for his church service in the morning, coz I worked the nite before at parkway, and was far too tired, and also didnt feel so good.
I wanted to see what his church service was like, and also to get my stuff from him. heh, but I couldn't drag myself out, even though I was in telok kurau as well. Godpa and Godma went overseas, and Shaun, Janice and Jus had me over tht nite. I was very happy when I got to go to their place, becoz initially i was suppose to go to Harri's, but we had some change of plans. I met Christine after work becoz she went cycling near the area ( all the way from bishan lehhhhhhh). i felt so so bad, coz she waited for me very long. Parkway is very xiao on and end work mudder fuggin late. hahahaha. We had supper at yoshi and AGAIN i was served by tht really really bassy voiced funny chap. Harri would know who Im referring to, coz she was with me the kast time i went to yoshi to eat there. He's so incredibly funny, kinda makes me feel a bit awkward.
I was feeling darn tired and needed to go somewhere near to sleep over if I intednded to wake for Charles church service tht nite at all. THEN! Just when I was feeling like crap, my wonderful godbrother so HAPPENED to drive past me at the traffic light, and thts how I ended up at their place. LOL. God, thank you. You really have a way of cheering me up. And eh certainly does. Everytime I feel no one's there, he does smth really good. Like tht nite when i HAPPENED to have bumped into gerri and ian ( which was a nite i was feeling like fug). U see, im very used to stay overs now. If anything it's become a habit, all because of jw. I felt so weird and sad, coz I would have called him and asked if i cud go over and stay. Tht nite, i really needed to just hug him and cry out. I just needed someone to massage me, and tell me he'll be there. But I truly enjoyed the company of my god siblings (who really feel like cousins at least) and godsis gave me some of her clothes (which has a really nice looking arabian skirt too). They also gave me a cool nike like water bottle!! YEAH YEAH! Not to mention, pat gave me his MTC SIGG water bottle too HOHOHOHO! *(nopw i have not one not two but three water bottles!). I ended up gg online on my little godbro's laptop (wait hes not tht little anymore!) and watched a movie with him and his fren who was stayin over too tht nite. i slept incredibly later, and so cudnt wake up too. Chatrles me sooooo sowwie HAHAHAHAHAH.

I went back to choir last sunday. U wana noe how it felt?? AMAZING. I felt like i was meeting half of my loved ones again. I sang out like I have not in the last few months, and truly cherished tht few hrs back in church. U noe u really know how to treasure smth when u have so little of it. Tht goes for people, time, money etc. it makes so much sense now. --but during tht day, it's not like i wasnt sad. in fact, i'll come to tht later. So i teared a bit during mass. A sudden overwhelming feeling came upon me. but still. mass was fantastic. big hugs came from most of my section, most of my choir. great to have been with u guys and gals again cd choir.

After mass, i spent the rest of the nite at the neach, at a bbq with patricl and a whole bunch of new frens i made tht nite. We had chang kand and akiko there. We had ETC's front man, and some of their music frens. had alot of unplugged accoustic jamming there tht nite, with food and alcohol too. it was nice. was there till 2am, then pat drove us home.

now, jw and i, the whole dsamn thing was really eating me up. one day it's formal, next day it's "dear" this "dear" tht. It came a point i was so confused how to feel when i received his sms. At d end of the day,what i really needed to noe, he cudnt give. I think ive given so much time for him to think thru. It hurts so much tht i mean so little to him. Tht he just cant say yes, i waant to love u again properly. Its been going on like this for a month. Thruout sunday, i was up and down becoz of him. I think of him alot.I decided to ask him once and for all on sunday nite, at the bbq. He didnt ans : ( I decided i'll give him till monday morning to ans.So sunday passed and it came monday.

Monday-->
Woke up to the sight of no sms.
Yet my heart still hoped, defying what I told myself the previous nite. Anyhow i went to work. Work was surprisingly ok and quite happy, even tho it was so quiet for labour day and i was only working with my two bosses. They were quite fun tht day. : ) But by nite time, i got far too tired, and suddenly while i was wrapping cds to sleeve and shelf in the store room, i broke down. I just cried. But silently, and just for like three mins. I had to hold it back coz i was at work. I just wanted him around so badly. I missed him. Tht nite, i decided, enuff is enuff.
I went to harri's to stay over after work, and we had a nice time chilling,playing scabble and watching the world's dumbest movie "eyes wide shut". GAWD DAMN STUPID.
We torned till 4am and i knocked out.

Tuesday-->
Today, i woke sleepy, but harri and i watched some cable tv and chilled first. Initially lazy to go out, we wanted to just stay home or go to bugis which is nearer. I was worried she mite not like to go shopping with me, but in d end, we decided to go to orchard, coz i wanted to look for charles pressie. Harri, shes my bestest girl, bestest friend. Shes so so tolerant off me. Gosh i really luv her very much. I kept gg on so anally abt what i wanted to buy, and all the emo stuff, and shes just there for me. I am extremely EXTREMELY grateful tht shemakes time for me. I mean, yesterday and today u noe. Im sure she wanted to do her own things too. But she was there for me. We did alot of shopping today, and most of my shopping list is done! :p. I checked my finances too, and was careful. Im happy with my new purchases : ). I forgot abt everything. She and I just had such a gd time today. I feel happy. Usually when i listened to the perishers, my mood and feelings synced with the music, but tonite, i felt i was a notch or two above tht emo level. Harri--thanks so so much babe. With all my love and everything. Yr mum too, love u both muchies.

Hmm Meliza's dad is in very critical condition now. Im worried for her. Im worried for mMchele too. One of working and dad is in ICU now, while mel is overseas gg to have exams and cant see her dad. i think shes worse off i guess. Mel, i noe we may have had our differences, but noe tht im here, and very much still love u and yr family alot. I will ask over Michele since i work in the same place as her. If u need me to do anything for yr mum or bro, pls, let me know. Always keeping u in my prayers dear babe.

Joyce called after work on monday : ) *wink* so happy lehhh ;p hahahahaha. It was so nice to hear from her again. Im gald tht she is managing ok on tht side. always thinking of her tooooooooooz. U better not lose more weight than me SISTAR!

So, this is how tuesday has been. I had a gd shower and washed clothes upon reaching home. I have noted tht my diet isnt balanced lately. not enuff fiber at all. Having severe stomach problems lately.

Pat asked me again if jw and i are now ON OR OFF, looking at our created one month history. So i said I suppose its OFF. What else can it be???. I just want to return him his stuff, give his mum her mothers day present, and get my charger. What other business cud we possibly have anymore...................

Gd night.