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Feeling better today...beginning to accept tht vic left us so suddenly...and learning fromeveryone more and more abt her...bryan..thanks for taking such gd care of her...many of us didnt and still dont know..so thank you...

I was suppose to go down for Jam X Finals today, but head was spinning like stupid shit. Came home and nappend from 5-10pm. Craziness.

Earlier today was Jeremy's wedding. he wore a white suit man. Wow. So doctor of him. =p

We all make mistakes...stupid ones at tht. Sometimes damage is done, sorries are pointless, but reality is what we face. Regreats are pointless as well. I leave it in God's hands. Have mercy on me. Please Lord Im sorry.

give me some space. thinking space.

Monday is a full day in schl. darn. I was hoping to study from monday to wednesday. Now, i'm left with Tuesday and Wednesday. Test is on thursday. Dont tell me to study now. No mood whasoever. I hope it helps to distract me.

Been reading Milan Kundera's Unbearable Lightness of Being. WOW. Another book like Jeanette Winterson and Arthur Gold's.
Coz it is so good, I can't put it down.

Going offnow. Wana play games with Rene, JW's gd friend.

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Vicki dear,

all of us talk about you day in day out...and all the many memories of you with us are being shared amongst us. You truly touched many hearts in FSV. Ure smiling now, arent you? : )
I'll try the papaya milk and let you know how i like it!





Dear, thank you for yr support the past few days. love you

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I dont think I'll be changing my blog layout becoz Vicki told me she liked this one. She liked 2046, she liked red. she liked the number 12. She liked just hanging out with any of us. She realli touched many of us in schl. Many of us share fond memories of her. I could go on and on, but we all alreadi know. She was beautiful whatever anyone says.

Vicki babe, mei nu, ni xian zai zai na li? ni kai xing ma?
Vic, many of us miss you very much. many of us cried our lungs out for you today. many of us are still stoned. But all I wan to know is are you at peace now and are you happy? If you are happy, then I'll smile for you.
Vicki, thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for all the many times we shared secrets, we hugged, we went out or had lunch, tes, dinner and gossip sessions in school. Thank you for msging me. Thank you for saying you'll leave yr phone on for me. Thank you for going crazy with me. Thank you for so much so much more. You will be in me always.
Good bye vicki.

love, mel

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Im realli happy today. =) Simply happy becoz it was so nice to hang out with dear today. It was a short, but sweet afternoon. We headed back to his sec schl to see his former band, and his conductor still remembers him well!! Got a bit pai seh when they wanted an intro to me. Hahaha.=) But I like his sec schl. Nice , big, lotsa space. Quite pretty with its greeenery too. Spent a gd few days with him, and im happy. ; ) Now time to work hard this weekend!! Tmr studying and have god bro's bday dinner. Sat wedding to attend and sing, come class in the early evening. Sunday not going church. Head straight to the hotel for the banquet. Please pray weiyi and me can pull off the songs well not forgetting lyrics! And also nick and sam. Excited but also a bit nervous abt it. Hmm..maybe not nervous...rather like...worried la. Everything must go well. Two sets, five songs each.

Okies...gtg...feel like changing blog layout liao...see how la...;p hahaha....byebyezzzzz

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Haven't been updating here..Don't know why...so just adding some links....tata

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On a solemn note today

My choir friend's dad passed away today at 1pm. S group of us from chori are close to his family. It hurts me to know he's gone. I only saw him not long ago. He was always very nice to us. But yet the fight is over and he is at peace now. Im happy for that. I think my friend's family is very relieved too.

I tot i was gonna be in hospital today man. Woke up feeling terrible, and decided to go to the doctor to get mc and also to check what the heck was wrong. Fever for so many days. Took a blood tes, and everything is apparently ok....WHICH IS GOOD. : ) Dear accompanied me and that made me feel so much better. He's really precious to me.

Bakc home, resting and taking the medicines. feeling groggy, so i shall sleep now.

This year has started a little gloomily...let's hope there'll be more rainbows.

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Good Afternoon. How are you all today?

My fever is...GONE! BUT. The flu anf sore throat is back in full scale. SHAT.

Am not at choir today. Weiyi was realli nice to take over my cantoring. Will probably do his slot end of the month.

Right now, feeling realli tired, and well, the feeling of being sick lah. Last night was damn funny though. Gotta speak with dear and his friends over the phone. They were chilling at ecp. Wah..he's got some mad friends. hahahaa. Cool eh. We're all surrounded by funny, mad, querky friends. WAHAHAHAH=)

I can't wait to see him again, but I gotta get well first. Not gonna pass it around man.

I really want school to end. I'm drained. I dont wana do this no more. But I'm still pushing on, for the last , to complete what I have begun.

Olrite, ogg to bathe. Time to go to God's house. God bless ya' all.

dear took this during dinner...i would like to put his pic up..but....i think he;d rather im not..so..hahahaa

harriet and me...dunnoe what i'd do without her...thx so much for everything gurl

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It's all alright...thank God. Realli.

My temp was like this since yesterday. It started off at 38.9 after i left dear's place. Then it was 38.1, 38, 39.2, 39.6, 38.3, 37.4, 36.6, and now 36.2 =)

Man, what a night. The shivers were unbearable. Dear was nearby ..i know he wanted to come up..but im so sorry .... haha, he's now gonna be preparing a feast with rene and edwin!! I ALSO WAN!!!!

yes you probably guessed. Everything is alright. I hope it stays that way........

haha and my bro got himself msn!!! ahahahaa

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Everything Went Wrong Today

I couldnt wake up for class. My clock was slow and delayed me further. I took cab. I dont have much left for the month.

Got to class, and soon after started having a very nasty headache tht has lasted the whole day. I wore my jacket, but i was freezing and shivering like mad. That feeling is unbearable. I borrowed a much thicker jacket and wore it round me. Same thing.

Went somewhere after class today to clear my mind, or at least i hoped. Ended up crying. Ended up starting a 38.9 degrees fever. Went home and shivered even more. Mum gave cold compress. Now it's 38 degrees but the headache is still there.

How can you expect me not to be hurt? If I don't, I'm not human. I''m more than just hurt. I feel like a stand in. I feel disappointed. Come back to me when you're ready to.

Guess what, it's that time of the month. Shit.
Tmr I have backstage class and I havent practised, will I get better by tmr?
Sunday I'm cantoring...how? I hope I dont have to ask weiyi yo take over.

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I couldn't attend dvd test today. Dad is in hospital. Please pray for him. He has two ops this morning. It isnt majorly serious, but the after effects of the ops are worrying me. He couldn't be discharged so stayed tonight. Tmr he might have to stay in as well. operated on the left leg and the right hand. How is he going to use the clutches?

I found out dad was in hospital when I was out with Harri, dear and two of my sec schl friends yesterday. Met them after med law tutorial, and though I was realli tired, I was very happy to have had thier company. Sushi dinner had to be cancelled when i received nick's call that dad's in hospital. Was up real late last night as well. In fact it has become such a habit. the lack of sleep is getting to me though. Practically knocked out on the bus and trains today.

had night class earlier, and it was real real fun. Though there is homework, I enjoyed myself.
Ive got a thousand and one things to do all the time, and only 24 hrs a day. Man. Hahaha. =) But I have the strength to pull thru. =) But on days when im tired, that can be a bit hard to believe. HAHAHAAAA.

Aniwae, was so happy yesterday. Thanks Harri, thanks dear.
Hope Dad will be able to be discharged tmr. Have specs meeting tmr, and then i'll head straight to the hospital. Meeting at night at my house with weiyi and sammie had to be postponed, but we have aready decided what to sing for sammie's cousin's wedding dinner! Yay.

Okies, super zonked alreadi. byebye SHAPES. hahahaa

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School, was realli realli quite boring today. I couldnt take the world issues class especially coz the presentations on wars were just not my cup of tea. I was never a history person. Some of the classmates were very formally dressed. WHOA. There was this guy who reminded me of weiyi very very much. The height, the shirt, the specs, the hair. Heh, tot i'd never find another person who resembles him.

Aniwae, when school was over, I was more than happy to "zhao" and go home. Dear has a gig later tonight and he's on the bus now as I type. I tot I wouldn't get to see him today, but i really couldnt "tahan" anymore, coz I last saw him something like three days ago. TOO LONG i say.
Met him at the end of my mrt line, haha, of coz where i stop and spent some time with him. that really cheered me up. it really did. That feeling is amazing. A dryness mosit again. What a metaphor, but what the heck.

Am back home now, and starving. Gonna have dinner soon, revise media law for tmr's class, get some of my own stuff done, and wait for dear to be back home. : ). Augh, so sleepy...but should be better after ive bathed after dinner. Mum's cooking my fabourite soup! HEHEH. Yay. God is good, all the time.

Angel sis found out abt us today, and was so thrilled to find out from me. Sis, forgive me for not telling you. Hahaha, seems quite a few of his good friends wana meet me too. Vice Versa. hahaha.
Think we should meet up with vera soon as well, but first stop, HARRI. =) yeah. sister mel and bro nick chan like him, so thts smth to be happy abt also. =) OkOK. I will stop here...think you all BUAH TAHAN LIAO. Im sorri, im realli happy. Just some time, and my day is made so so much happier.

Holly, hope you're doing excellent too. thanks everyone for all the tags!!!! Can i have a vote, is it time to change layout? hehehe

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Hpw was yr new yr celebrations? Hope everyone enjoyed themselves.