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my sis calls me a blissful girl. I have to agree. =)

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Dinner is almost ready. I'm starving right now, and can't wait to eat. Mum is using chicken stock. the smell is too recognisable now. Dear will get wad i mean...heh. I smelled mum's cooking and just grinned to myself.

The next time WE cook chicken stock spagetthi with potatos and mushroom, we musnt put too much stock. But the fried rice was delicious.=) So adding ayam stuff wqs good. I wana cook tht again. =)

Gonna spend tonight revising. I can do it! I must!

School is getting pretty boring except for MEDIA LAW!!!! ^_

My deepest condolences to the victims and families affected by the earthquake and tsunamis...the total death toll is very saddening. My prayers are with all of you out there. Makes me feel horrible.

I thank God for such blessings I have.

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I am very very very very very happy. Thts my summary of the day.

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it's all alright now...it's better than ever. =)

God, thank you.

=)

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Christmas eve was excellent. I stayed home instead and got enuff rest for the day's activities.
By night, i dressed up, and headed to church for choir practise. Everyone was also very glamourously dressed up. After practise in the stuffy room, we had a break before mid night mass. Call it our telephathy or what, but dear decided to stay downstairs and wait for me instead of going up. No idea why. I bumped into him earlier than expected. =) Thank you too edwin for coming along to accompany wei.

I was realli happy to see him. No words can describe how much it meant to me, that he was there. Thank you baby. Th midnight mass was gorgeous, grand and simply lovely. Our two choirs combined created such a magnificent atmosphere, with out voices soaring thru the entrie church. My dear didn't even get to sit inside church as it was overspilling with people. He waited for me an entire hour or so..(again) just to see me after church. We haf a great photo...I'm very happy with it. : ) It was sad he couldnt join me for supper after that, but the night ended beautifully. Thank you again dear.

I was home near 5am, and unwrapped 15 presents till 7am, when i hit the sack! HAHA, and woke at 3pm, to realise i was suppose to be at sammie's at 1pm. HEHE. The party was simple, and nice, with sam's delicious food, esp my favourite macaroni and cheese!!!! I received another 5 presents, which has currently brought my number of presents to a grand total of 20 presents!. tmr still getting more...hwahwahwa.

Dinner was at breeks with family. The evening wasnt good for me. Made me weary and overly exhausted. mentally and emotionally tht is. I got home, hadn't bathed, and had a sudden rush of stress, from thoughts already filling my mind. Made things worse coz I had a whole load of things to do. i made wei worried and very upset . it isn't as bad as it seems. im realli sorry. I did call. I did. And now i cant sleep. ...............................

In response: You didnt...it's just smth we needed to tok abt. It's normal...little trials..which is nothing...how abt huge ones, which we agreed to storm thru together....true love also requires understanding...on my side ...if you ever feel the weight is too heavy ..let me know...

love,
m

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He's really sweet. =)

Had Med law class today, and never have I managed to stay awake for a morning class esp a lecture like this. =) I like it. It is very interesting, though there is alot to read up on rom the text book and the notes. Ms Teo teaches very well, and thts all tht matters. One morning she should sing for us. She has a beautiful crystal clear voice.

I have finally finished wrapping ALL my presents!!! Yay!!! What a chore it became! haha. Too many presents. last one left--my dear's present. Svout to start making it now. Off I go.
*_*

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...i say..we''ll pull thru...im falling for him more and more each day....yes, we're...*uhhum*

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Im so scared...Oh Good Lord, pls..pls..don't let anything tear us apart...please i beg you...

Im very upset now..and i cant tell him. coz dad blasted me for wanting him to join us for supper on xmas eve. How do i tell my dad..we're practically together? when...he's alreadi damn pissed we have tots of being together? ...im fukcing upset...coz dad doesnt want me to do those jamm stuff with him anymore..and doesnt want us to be together..till im 21...fuck tht...and doesnt want me to go for those rouge and what not jams anymore. fuck la... i dun care. im gonna do exactly all of these. i want to be with him.

-cries buckets...- pls..lord..pls...work the miracle for me..you didnt put me and him into each other's lives and let everything go so smoothly for nothing rite???

Plus..lord..i have alot of work to do for schl, for backstage, for myself...alot of things..pls lord..help me cope...i beg you.

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Suprises come, when you least expect them to.




=)

the skies have been beautiful ever since... and i am in love with sunsets now...

The Dream Team. ;p They look so good eh.

...green tea, alovera, cookies, two pple, two bags...and a great time

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Yesterday was beautiful.
It was magical. Truly.
It was a gift. An early Christmas gift God has given to me.

I have closed all other doors, that have greyed and turned black. I have opened a new chapter, and discovering it's gorgeousness.

Go ahead, bro, say what you want. I have already embarked on this journey. There's no looking back. There's only time.

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Something is happening. I need to think about this. =) But for now, I'll just be happy for what I have. Seize the happy moment, for as long as it will last : ) Thank you.

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Thank you Jianwei.

it's been a long time since I've met a guy of such substance. His language is flowery, and albeit his quiet nature to strangers initially, I've come to realise he has quite a bit of experience under his belt. he is also definitely more streetwise than most guys of his age. of coz, to him, he'd say age is just a number. I'm quite intrigued by the opinions he gives, and his replies to certain things i say. It sint' the usual replies you get, but something refreshing.

This new friend is interesting.

There's not been much to update. Tmr is the start of the second week of school. I'm not a bit happy about it. I don't see what good it does by advancing school by a month. it is getting in the way of Christmas preparations. I know I've complained quite a bit about this, but Christmas is the most important festive season to me.

I'm still pretty ill, andf it's quite irritating.

I've decided what to wear for Xmas. I'm still trying to get all the presents wrapped. Haha...

Today, weiyi sang really well for his cantor piece and advent entrance hymn. Very nicely done.

I went down to ROUGE last night, for ELECTRICO and ARMCHAIR's gigs. I had a fantastic night. Harriet and Jianwei were with me as well. I met one guy there who was also at RONIN's previous gig. Also met Yung and Ying. I kinda expected to. They are Uncle KT's children. he owns the whole peranakan place. i would love to elaborate about last night, but i'm truly exhausted right now. Rouge is really nice. I hate the techno there tough. It was splendid having Harry and Jianwei with me. Thank you Daniel of ELECTRICO for putting us all on the guest list!

ELECTRICO---you guys are swesome.

Now, Thank you HARRY for the newspaper wrapped present. i believe I'm gonna like it very much.

There's just an emptiness inside of me, which I'm waiting to fill. For now, i have decided to leave it empty. There isn't quite a story i have to continue sharing anymore. Let them each sail on with thier lives. i have realised i'm not sure who and what anymore.

In today's sermon, The Lord said "we must wait." And in Singapore, we're not accustomed to waiting. Everything must be done yesterday.

In Vicki's multiplt entry today, she mentioned about not just wanting to BE with the person, coz that's simply selfish. Dont just think of it, as what YOU want, but also as what you want that person to be : happy. Do smth for the person, and be happy that he/she is happy. Not just that it'd make you happy. I'm learning..to be that way.

No more. It's done.

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It saddnes me when a friend is upset. But, anyway, he'll be fine.

haiz, i should try to care less next time.

Actually..i sldnt care so much. But i do. oh well.

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yeap those were more photos from KL...heh.

my new moo moo..hehe...third to the moo moo collection at home : ) Grin.

so true.

heehe this was damn cute.

YUMMM

just relax!!!!

levis underwear..yeah

this model...wow.

hehehehee

ex.....

The towers from far...

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Second day of school wasn't tht bad :p In fact, it was interesting : )

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Have been too damn lazy to update. I tot i was gonna share more photos online..heh, think I shall wait till i have the patience to put them here. I spent two good days uploading 192 photos from the KL trip for all the family and friends...

oh gosh. school starts tmr. ..........ARGGGHH. EXTRA AGGH.

neways, was very sick the last few days, but am feeling better now. Since I came back from the trip, was at home till Friday. I went to Ronin's and Electrico's gigs again. They're both great bands. Superb. Electrico is like UP THERE with my dudes from Ronin just slightly behind them.

After the gig, as usual, hugs with the guys, esp lerping and sean...lerping forever squeezing me until my bones feel like they're gonna break. Hahaha...he was like so proud to show me off to his gf...tht guy ah, damn cartoon. Luff him all the same. I couldn't forget Sean...=) He's just the sweetest, seriously.


The night was great. : )

Well, more gigs to come!! hOHoHO...gonna head down to rouge next saturday for Electrico and Armchair from thailand man!! Wow~~Sean, you wana come along? Harriet and I are going, as always :p

I went back to choir today, for mass...coz my throat was still soar, so didn't want to strain my voice. Ah, you already know what I'm gonna say~ Yea! it was so nice to everyone again, and my sweet "bro" gave me my Xmas present. I haven't even got his yet!! he's flying off to Japan tonight, with his school. I wish him a fun and safe journey. His turn no to be overseas...Heh.

Lerping, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ...sorry I couldn't make it for supper tonight. Please, don't be angry with me...

What's on my mind now? I realise everyday the feelings are starting to change. It's damn scary.
I need God's grace SERIOUSLY, tohelp me LEVEL my head and make a decision. yesterday i felt it was (this) and today, i woke up feeling nothing at all. whattodo. ah whattheheck. Let it be.

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I was suppose to go for ian's wedding, then head down to far east for Ronin's gig, thento class earlier today. All of which I didn't do, coz I am cery under the weather today. Soar throat is really bad, with yucky coloured phelgm, and headaches that keep coming and going. I tried to head out for class, but Dad said it's better not to. I've been sleeping the whole day, so much so that I'm not sure how ill i fel now. Just very stoned.

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kay all photos are up online...but for the privacy of some of my family and thier friends who may not want their photos to be seen, pls tag me and I'll email you the link...thanks lots...some of you ive already sent to you..;p thx....

yeah its tall! the patrona towers...

ahem..heh

the window from the upstair of the cafe...

heh a nice china cafe...with antique furniture inside...

nopes...we didnt stay in this hotel...but gawd..it's wow

saw this outside the steamboat restaurant...damn funny..hahaha

our half eaten cookie..all of us couldnt finish it..all four of us...too full..from steamboat and coffee...

this is for my sis...mel..hee..im sure you love this pic..mango shapes...

this is the inside of one of the shopping malls there...beautiful isnt it? lovely...

on the way to kl...

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RITE. i just lost my whole post. Dont you just HATE IT when tht happens?!?! My neck is aching ok! wah lau....hahahaha...

i shall not spoilt the mood of my post, sooo...TAUFIKK!!!!!!!!! you rock buddy!!!!!!!! HEHEHE.. everyone is so damn proud of you! Singapore FINALLY made the rite choice!! it's taufik in the house, and truly, TAUFIK deserves it all!!!

hehe...now...KL WAS GREAT!!!!! loads and loads of eating, shopping, and meeting old friends!! yeah, and I took loads of pics too! Dont know how I'm gonna share them yet, coz all the serveers are screwed up! hehehe

I damn tired now...so tmr k?? I am happi to be back on sunny island with cleaner grounds..hee;p and DEFINITELY safer drivers...damn man those pple there....