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Quite silly of me, that I'm so ill but I still sleeping so late tonight. Very bad habit that has caused me to becoem used to being a night oiwl, so much so that I do my work much better at night. But this has also led to my poor health over the years. It's just one of the probably handful of reasons. Honestly, It felt very good when I slept at 12am a few nights ago. Despite waking up twice in the morning, i felt refreshed, sorta, and i was suprised I didn't feel that tired when i woke in the morning. it felt good to be awake in the morning. haha. Sounding like as if it's some new discovery. Like I don't know early bee catches the worm. hee. I guess I need to really slowly start adjusting back to normal sleeping hours. Do you think I can do it? Me? being so ill disciplined at times? Hmm, If i put my mind to it, I can. But really, I do sleep late coz I prefer the night alot. It's my best time. WEell, having said that, I think ths is gonna take a while.

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Gawn damn farking tired, and suddenly moody. It's the flu la, always makes me so drained. Helped my bro with his shoot today. It was a short, simple shoot for his final project. It's a partial video/animation project
I need to get well, for the better of my voice coz i'll probably be cantoring soon again, after baby. And , also so that I have energy to help mum out at home. It's so strange, this hols, I don't seem to know what i want exactly. I was telling sis I want to work, to get cash. However, i don't want one too, coz i want to rest. As the saying gos, you can't have yr cake and eat it. But I'm realli tired, and also realli broke. Have to choose. However, staying at home, everyday ain't getting anything much done. I wake up, try to do some productive stuff like catch up on my books, piano, but all I've done is turn on my comp everyday and look at all these various websites...check mail...stay home watch TV...sleep late. Gosh. Sian, thts rite. I think I need to get well first, then start planning some outings to break out from this mundanity.

Yet anothe construction site accident in two weeks. This is getting extremely upsetting, not to mention, worrying. The news everyday is upsetting. More innocent lives are being taken. I don't know what to say to that.

I feel like I'm waiting for nothing. My happiness every week is so short lived.

This is just me , at night. Ill, sleepy and tired.My nose feels liek it's going to drop off, i miss my baby, i'm hingry and I'm typng this shit. I'm so glad I'm so fortunate where home lies. That's my main strength. I'm going to eat. bye.

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I'm siuck. I'm ill, AGAIN. ;X Darn. I think I sneezed almost 20 times since i wode up. I counted. Body is aching too.
I can't sing when I'm sick, coz it's very hard to breathe. Rite, and I don't haf much to say today. It was a quiet day at home.

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I went to school today. Called at the very last minute coz the adfp wanted the project today. I wentthere and chun foon had to leave after some time. I actually did some sound snyc. Am happy. However, am very mad abt something else with relation to Specialist. Behaviour of this individual has shocked me utterly. Immature and very selfish, self centered.

Anyway, trying to just pray about third year and trying not to let it affect me too much.

i went down town today, to get a Qoo tote bag. =) yes, yet another bag. I haf quite a number already. hehe. These few months i've realli gotten quite a lot of new stuff...shawls...shoes...clothes...bags...stationary...feel bad also coz some were bought by my parents...they're realli good to me. My dad keeps bringing us for nice dinners every now and then, and i totally feel bad abt it. i alwqays wonder how he affords it when we alreadi am so tight.

So, now i must cut down on spending...coz firstly i need ta save...since low on cash...secondly must find job...thirdly...i realli do haf enuff stuff ...hhahaha

see ya all...nitez...

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I'm so happy! My family went out for dinner, and we had three course dinner at the coffee shop! Kekeke ;p We ate my favourite satay, noh-hiang, and hokien mee! Yummy! Hawker centre, coffee shop food can taste better than some restaurants sometimes! After dinner, we took a walk, and ended up in a pasa malam...(alrite!) There are always so many pasa malam's in this area! The pasa malam is really quite big! It's wasted that we had our dinner already! Coz these pasa malam's always sell alot of food!!!!! Glorious food!! *imagines* Alrite, anyway, managed to get a really cheap tiny mirror and nail clipper=). Yeah, then after that, we made our way home...=) I say, i love my parents!! Coz they really spend on us...and thrift on themselves...and i always heart ached when dad spends so much just within a day...plus all the bills and tyhe work he has to do for tht stinky boss just to earn the money for us...loce my dad! And mum cooks the most delicious food around!

Actually, I love them alot alot. So much that when I looked at a pic of them in the study today, I felt so happy...coz that is one of thier nicest pics they have....I'm happy the way they have been so stirct on me...coz I'm proper, and I'm on thr right path.Thank you God, for my parents.

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Whehey! Guess what? I was productive today after all! I cleaned my room and the whole house! hehe =) There have been some renovation repairs going on coz of poor workmanship in the house, so we had some workrs in the house today. Now the house is nice and clean. Nah, I didn't do the heavy work. Dad and Mum did actuyally. Heh. They still do the best cleaning up than Nick or me.

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Good afternoon!! Let me guve a guess to who is reading now eh? hmm....Wen? Bright? Daph? Angie! Rich!! Hm...Vicki rite?? Of coz!..Hmm...a few people i don't know...which is always the case.Who else...?_^ ahh Ria babe! ..yeah...that shgld be the main pple..

Nah, I'm bored la..at home, getting my engine started for the day.The Nicoll highway news is very sad and unfortunate. I was reading the straits times and Home. I know on one hand, Mr Heng can't be rescued out, but on the other, It must be very hard for the family to accept this. To have the area sealed off, rebulit, knowing he's still underneath. My deepest condolences.

William Hiung, our afavourite Hung is making it big man! S'poreans bought 3'000 copies already? Wow! The reviewer in the papers condemed it to half a star out of five! Horrendous! He said stuff like you can use his cd as a frizby and to ward off aliens. Absolutely bizarre!

I'm very, very upset about the American idol results. Anyone dare deny it was unacceptable, that not one, but all three black girls got into the bottom three? Please, it's ridiculous! I say it wasn't fair. One, due to the black out in Chicago, which Hudson lost 15'000 votes. Two, It's clear as crystal that the three girls sang the best that night. I do not deny that Diana and Jasmine did earn thier right to stay in the top too. In fact, i supposrt ALL of the finalist at this point, and wish all of them can make it through. But there was one very weak contestant that night. Plkase don't tell me he's better than La Tya London?

America, what are you doing ?

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Heys all! gd evening! Whoa, daphie came by!!! heys girlfriend! haha...I slept till past noon today and went to watch Kill Bill Vol 2 in the evening!! woo! Quentin Tarintino rawks!!!!!!!!!! I absolutely love eevry single one of his works! So well scripted, and always such good music chosen for the soundtrack!

Bought snakcs, came home and watched more TV with me bro! hahaha. I swear I seem to be ndulging in a lot of chocs, and fatty foods since easter vigil!! Horrid!! I can't help it, I love eating!! hahahah....no, it's just sometimes..after resisting for too long! hehehe....

Nick bought the Kill Bill soundtrack immediately after we watched it. We were at Bugus, edge, and they renovated! It's got a lot of new stuff there now! =)

Hmms...i think Angel and I mite go out and find a job after her hols...so sian....and Ana is stil so busy with film pro, adfp, work, driving and Uhhum....makes me feel so like I realli haf nothing to do! I don't work, at least not yet...i don't exactly belong to anyone...I don't haf any more schl work..and I certainly can't take driving, so darn!!! =O...

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Hahah! Welcome bright and vicki!! Mew updated links..Plus wen's too...=)

Am so gald good friends still bother to read...;p hehehe...time to sleep thru tmr!! awrite! Gonna go watch Kill Bill tmr..=)

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Wohoo!~ I'm done with school stuff! man, feels damn werid, but am i happy? oh, yes! In the DES lab now...and i'm waiyting to be fetched! Nothing to do...which is super odd if you ask me...anyhows, it's gonna be a long, good weekend and that's great! Can finally see baby again...

Now hat the hols are here, it's time to rest, to read, to do alootta stuff tht i've missed out on...let's get started man!!!

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Monday and Tuesday MadNESS!!!
Monday 12-10pm in school. Went home, couldn;'t sleep after bathing which was alreadi 2am. slept at 5am, woek at 6+am, went to schl from 8am-6pm, and dad was lovely to have fetched me. !!! Anywa, went home, hungry and sick, so ate dinner first. Napped and woke up feeling ten times worse, took a terribl;y long, painful bath, ate some watermelon, watched the last bits of smallville and now im hungry again. Im feverish and i feel like eating again.

HEART ATTACKS

one- The infamous Nicol highway---what the??? Yet another black out in Singapore this mth. Caled all my dearest loved ones to make sure they're fine coz i was in schl. Anyways,
two- TV recording. Haiz.........we realli did make it in the end...can ms hong dun so harsh> i noe cannot...
Three-Then i bump into HH while the whole comotion abt Ncol highway was happening. potter see me and says: Melissa! See me scared rite?" haiz.......
Four-On of my da Jie called me this morning. tot wad happened. hengz. she found a job at mediaworks. okies.
Five- Regional test tmr, I haven't finished. You know the meaning of screwed? yeap.
Six- Went outta matroc , forgot my paperbag, forgot my floppy disc...and best, went down twice to get them coz i forgot both at diff times. wtf.
seven- strained my back carrying sest, hurts now.
eight- bumped into shaun AGAIN, becoz been more often recenlt. And his hair?? and he lost weight. yeap.
nine- suddely rememberd stuff with Brighton from the previous hols, which to me seemed like a yr ago. That's the illusion of how long this sem has been. I still haf his comic book.
ten- I'm afriad im very ill. Baby was at home today and i gotta tok to him...coz i wanted to check Uncle and Auntie's safety.
eleven- haha, like commandments. Chua cut his hair. whoa. kalif's trailer and mine are similar , esp our begnnings. I DIDNT copy him. yea. hehe

rite, i'm so dead now..gtg sleep. Nite babes.

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I was crolling thru my mobile last night, editing names to fill i surnames coz i'm getting confused...and I realised there are soo many people i so wanan catch up with. I feel guilty? and also veryone's busy la...but...we just aren't given the time to keep in touch with everyone. darn.

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whohoo! the babe came by!! yo wassup wen!!?? :)

Alritey, i haven't been posting coz me is farking tired and i go to d extent of repeating bagger like no stupid farking business...and i dance like stupid shit....hahaha...and i can't remember suddenly wad i wanted to write five seconds ago...aniwae, mugging for the final test which i'm far from done with...though i've been very diligently using wadever time i haf to actually gawd damn stduy! I'm stressed out la...last week of school but soooo much to do. Tmr is TV recording and two words: we're screwed. Okay, three: WE're probably screwed. So wish us luck, coz we need it ALL!...yes like all yr base are belong to us. repeat it ten times, it's good for brain stimulation.

arrrgh! This hols, i'm NOT gonna work those commitment sort where you go everyday, BUT like i need those kinda one two day thingymajiggs where you get paid and done with. Coz i''m in desperate need of a rest. Recuperate, sleep, read at home, chill, just fo specialist ...i dunnoe. Slow the damn pace down. It's been like this since itp. Wait. The pace started to race since yr two started. I remember shaun once mentioned abt him not having a break thru yr two. Now have I? hmm...Sorta, and also not so.

Little things like coming home early, sleeping in and going for supper at kap mac's is a big deal to me now. I need movies too. Thank you Sean and Tiff for yr great company. damn nice dudes to haf around.

i gtg. i stink like ewww. nites, and...

ya, this week w is having exams...argh!! shit, i miss him!

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Recently, it's been a series of cab-taking. Too much in fact. I need to control this...it's getting outta hand. Since the debarment exercise was over, i've been slacking. Thurs missed two classes, Tue missed two lectures, but all four of coz for the reasons that i was way tired and couldn't afford to fall sick yet...and that i found the lectures a waste of time. I know that now you won't get debarred but you'll fail if you don't do well. I'm sick, so sick of everything. Just realli wana finish this sem off and get the break. Everything ends next thurs, a whole week from now, and it seems awfully long.

My ever nagging flu is back, with disgusting green phelgm. I keep coughing and throwing out phelgm and that's all i smell. I've been eating a little too much too. I'm gald though, that it is bacterial and not viral--found out from my medical friend.

Dad and Mum are home!!! yay!! I was telling sis, angel how happy i am that they're coming back. Her bro just came back too!. And they bought a lot of stuff for us!!!!! =)

Yesterday, i had two friends who came to me for relationship problems. How weird. I'm honoured though, that they truested me enuff to tell me. I felt like love guru, but in actual fact, i'm one of the least experienced?? Oh anway.

While suny island experienced black out last nite, my house had a very short 15 mins black out too, coz of electrical trip. Heh, such coincidence.

Alright, gotta get back to trying to kick off regionalk paper.

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I don't know...maybe someone could tell me wad to do?

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Rite, so today was easter sunday! I did enjoy mass, and my choir had many many poeple giving us feedback that we did a good job! alrite! hehe...we've never sung for easter vigil before, so that was our benchmark! I had quite a few people coming up to me and encouraging me for my cantoring...haiz..hahaha...

Baby wore a funny, funny t-shirt today. it said:

INTER-COURSE ACTIVITIES
FCUK
POLYTECHNIC

hahahaha....oh well..Sammie saboed me during supper last nite...and i realli donnoe what damage he's done...but anyway baby has always been cold and hot to me...it saddens me tht i keep pretending...anyway, my table of girls couldn't finish our food, so i passed two satay sticks to thier table, where bro and jin sat...sammie said: eh, why don't you finish it la...(to yi), and yi said: hah...dunwan la...full alreadi....Sammie said: It's with love, you know...only two people are qualified to eat it on this table! AHHH! what the....my gosh...dunnoe what to do...jia lat liao...then baby said: hah...realli ar.. but i dunnoe if he did eat it in the ned....when bro told me i almost fainted. i realli dont wan to be confronted with this matter at all. ...

anyway...back to today...everyone went home after mass...i went to bedoke to eat dinner with mel and grace...a simple dinner...and came back home....suddenly a rush of things to do, like pqs, viv was askin for my stuff online...danny was msging me for tv....bro was askin me to dry the clothes...dad and mum called...argh! and finally now studying for life sciecnes...damn it...this week si gonna be hellish again....

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Today's goof friday mass was two hours long! Before that was choir practise for abt three hours. There are many, many songs that we will be ssinging for easter vigil tmr. All cantors will be in suits! hehe, i'll take a photo and show you whatd i look like tmr...but that'll prob be put inside my zorpia page...

Before i forget, happy good friday!!

Well, after that some of us headed down to orcahrd cineleisure,for lunch, then some went to watch Passion of The Christ. They askdif i wanted to go, but since bro and I alreadi watched it, i decided not to. (plus, i realli can't bare to watch it again). Baby is in a much better mood today. He wanted to go home right after practise, but coz Uncle bought movie tix alreadi, so he joined us...hehe, another lift from uncle=) Too bad sis angel couldn't come coz she has test tmr morning....I'm glad baby went to town for some fun today...he's been way way too stressed already...

haha, i have been talking abt him for the lst few posts...coz this week seeing him like five days....

Anyways, dad and mum have been calling back...and it's great to hear from them!! Though the bills are gonna sky rocket! I'm glad they are enjoying themselves....

K, whats wif the freakin TV project tension?? wassup man??? I can't even have PEACE on a freakin PUBLIC holiday.......sigh....just me whining...i know public hols arent a fishing diff from normal days...and since im producer...

oh well, gonna go quickly finish my pqs so tht viv can complete the presentation...and then, SLEEP! tonite, MUST get enuff rest...tmr must sing my best for my dear LORD.

nite, and haf a blessed easter weekend.

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Today was weird. no 8am class. I didn't go for 9am or 1pm class. I went for 4pm and it finished at 530. Went to church for adoration. We sang for half an hour. It was beautiful.

But i was very sad at the ned...coz baby was in a bad mood. Projects not going well, and he went back to schl after church. He didn't even tok to me.mIt was hurting to see him like tt. I would haf felt worse, but angel dear was there for me...

ahh, fuck la. It's maundy thursday anyway. My sacrifice is the hurt i felt, and the shite that happened this morning. Snyway, I finally know how to sing the sonng baby sang at the competition.....here it is...

LOOKING THRU THE EYES OF LOVE
-MELISSA MANCHESTER-

Please don’t let this feeling end
It’s everything I am
Everything I want to be
Ican see what’s mine now
Finding out what’s true
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love

Now I can take the time
I can see my life as it comes up shining now
Reaching out to touch you
I can feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love

And now I do believe
That even in the storm we’ll find some light
Knowing you’re beside me
I’m all right

Please don’t let this feeling end
It might not come again
And I want to remember
How it feels to touch you
How I feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love

And now I do believe
That even in the storm we’ll find some light
Knowing you’re beside me
I’m all right

Now I can take the time
I can see my life as it comes up shining now
Reaching out to touch you
I can feel so much
Since I found you
Looking through the eyes of love

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Today, schl was: audio project/ regional lecture, which I left at 4.30pm.

Tonite, i went to support baby at his talenttime competition. Among all the contestants, I personally feel that besides him, there were only three other soloists who could really sing. I'm being very objective about this, because baby can realli realli realli sing, and i'm v fair when it comes to singing...however, what do you do when you haf judges like cccrush? formally known as CCC, and some little green frogs group? Out of so many contestnats, they only gave a runner up and a singer. The audio crew was screwed up, why? coz they kept cutting songs off half way, playing wrong tracks, and it was just horrible. Some contestants could barely hit a note, but they say it's their top 12 out of 100 over students who signed up. My gosh.

Angel(sis) , weijin, uncle, auntie, joel,jon, kor, all felt the competition was very unfair. One of the singers even had a secodn chance coz her song had technical faults...well, the rest did too??!! I think God blessed baby...but, he was contestant number one...and was sadly forgotten...something was v wrong with the judges...coz even other good singers were not even runner ups...many forgot lyrics...like half a song??

I gave baby a v cute soft toy fish keychain...and a prayer card....he liked it...joel and alvin gave him a huge super star balloon! hehe...i was sad for him...but of coz i ddint show it...coz i know as much as he took part for fun, he would also haf a want to win it...but, after tt, girls asked for his number...bands were asking also to contact him in future...yeah=) I think he's superb and no matter, he's our winner! ;p

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My injured toe feels a bit better today...but it looks damn disgusting!!

today choir was super long....from 4-9pm...two practices and mass itself...this week is holy week...let's pray for us to be more prayful, and be more trusting in God...I'll be busy on thurs, fri and esp sat...big days....and before tht wed is baby's competition...he's so cool! he now haven quite decided on song yet...so steady! love him! he's just sop confident...=) I'm v rpoud of him...

another week of schl to face...everyday in the whole week is gonna be LONG. well, here i come.

worries abt future...i'll fight it.

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Today started off real rough, man. I woke up 10 mins before the time that i was suppose to be in school. I called vicki, and rushed to get ready. I ran out of the house, and injured my last tow real bad on the way. It was bleeding when i got into the cab. Cab fare was 15 bucks. No, im no longer rich. Got to school, and the talk was till almost 2pm. TOLDCHA. how can so much be one hour long? hahaha. Specialist group is worrying me like hell. I have no grp. ya, it's lax to do just two electives the whole freakin sem, but i wish to be in a specilist and do post pro for them. Im gona take post pro for elective also. Last time, it used to be what i wana do for elective out of interest, but nowadays I'm really thinking about my future, what jobs i can get, and what i'm gonna do after poly. It's giving me quite a headache, coz if FSv dip aint enuff for me, i'd have to go into a totally diff line of work. dad says career is v impt. Something that will give you more than enuff to survive, esp if ou're thinking long term.

Another dip? Another diff course? I might haf to do that; but first, i so want to be an editor.

Talk was over, and i wanted to go lunch with ana and vicki. Some shite happened. All of us got fishing pissed. I was already upset enuff about all the yr three stuff,a dn my toe was realli painful. It's now bandaged with gouze and tape with medicine on it. Dad says to be careful coz it may turn v septic, then i haf a problem. It needs to heal before next sat, coz of easter vigil!

I decided to call dad, coz i couldnt't hang ard waiting anymore. Nothing was turing out rite this afternoon. So i went home with dad, but bought stuff first at bedok. Bumped into an ex colleague from bedok pizze hut. Goish, of all people.

WEll, once i got home, everything was better. I told bro my worries, and he said, just pray about it. Everything wilkl come by then you decide. Yeah. and if only i could sing as a job forever. 8-11+ was cantor practise for easter cigil. Met baby there. he came from school, my poor thing. He left quite early to send off i think either joe or joel...his cousin...wish i could have gone tif him...but sam was wooping mad today. There's now more to practise besides psalm6. i haf to practise my verse for litany of the saints too. rofl! full suit, with pretty shoes and pastel top, here i come!

Listening to Tori Amos' Scarlet Walk cd...how ironic..when i heard the lyrics " I tot i knew you well..." hehe...nite nite...

kor has gone fishing!!! oh man...wish i can go there too..,but ive no patience for fishing....

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So blur today, I bought a 6 bukaroos BK meal...instead of a 3.95 bukaroos one...coz i had two whole phamplets of BK coupons....anyways, it was more filling....but darn was i blurr....

i remember the other day, when i took cab to tanah merah...i happiky forgot to get my change...in fact i gave more...so the cabbie earned another one buck. fishie.

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need to buy props...

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Being producer for this coming TV project is quite hellish, hahaha. It's rush, rush, rush. Today, most of my sms went to work, work and more work. Liasing with the host, guest, my grp members, then with a yr one friend i'm supose to help...and my other host....plus being secretary for cantors...one of them giving me problems...have to speak with the head....kaboomz!!! me is xiaoz liaoz...

Went to watch Passion of The Christ earlier...and I think i cried a bucket full of tears? yes, i don't wana elaborate.

Absolutely blur today. ADFP sookoo on us...cancel meeting...editing gave to john....left the DATs and library CD in the room...tmr drag jay loo down to return to me...so paiseh!!!

aiyoz...

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One step better. i'm now able to sing in front of my choir w/o feeling so tensed anymore. Now need to work on that while I cantor. Next sat, in fact holy week, dress code is white top, black bottom. Sat, dress code for cantors, suit with drak colours inside.

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And some days, I thank God for very busy schedules.....

Attended church meeting again today, right after school. This week, at the end of it, will be a breaking record of four meetings for choir and cantors. All in preparation for the Day even better than Christmas. It is Easter, glorify the Lord. Next week three days of church activities as well, and I am very happy.

I have also taken up secretary for the cantors. hahaha.