here's one more...

heh taken from my balcony...i love it...

different shot..like duh..but yeah you get the point..heh

My Xmas tree ...set up today :p pretty eh?: hehee ..
thats what i did today with my bro...so fun.=)
Yeah...i wonder what you did today for yr birthday? I wish I could have been there...to celebrate it with you. i'm glad I posted that gift...and I'm glad you liked it.. I wish i could do more. But thats all i can do. I miss you.
It's time for Christmas. i look forward to it, though I'm very broke. I'm still gonna buy all my pressies for all my friends on my list. Somehow, God will provide. : ) I don't know If I wana write cards this year...feel so damn lazy...heh.
Tmr cantor meeting. yay. Will get to meet excellent company..hehe

and she dreams again...

Hi THERE!! hahahaha =)

Got da mood to write, so i shall write! ^___*

What have I been doing...I'm not too sure which day i left off at, so i'll back track... -:

Today, went to catch The Incredibles with my bro and Andrea. It was great seeing her again after so long! She's single again; it didn't work out that well. But she's still so into dancing! After that we went to the esplanade, to enjoy the second night of "A Date with Friends". Tonight's jam was a tribute to Andie William's song! =) Esplanade is holding a week of such sessions, and every night a different band goes down to jam and it's FOC. What else can you ask for? =) My family is going down every night with our friends until we leave for KL on sat bright early chirpy morning! =)

We headed to that same place for supper. It's somewhere near Good Shepard church but i dont know what the place is called. I swear the way im eating supper and munching, i'm gonna put on weight and that's BAD!!! hehe...But the prata there is so so so delicious!

Yesterday, went to Paragon with mum and bro to buy new xmas tree decors...wow, they're decors are real nice...;p After that we had tea at the basement and headed off to esplanade for the first night of a date with friends. Yesterday was special coz we went there to support my friend Wendy, who has been singing for fifteen years now. She also has her own studios (Mix Studios) with her husband Jerry, who is the fantastic drummer! Last night was a tribute to the Carpenters, and Wendy did a splendid job!!! Her tone is very suitable for Karen Carpenter's songs and she sounded great! Not to mention I had excellent company too! Hehehehee...*uhhum* .

Supper was at ECP and was with that excellent company. : ) Not to mention i sat with that excellent company the whole night. hahahahaha. (OMG MEL)

What did I do the day before? Hmm Sunday! Oh Sunday something sad happened. Unfortunate rather. I hope for the best.

Saturday was cool. I was out for 17 hours. From 7+am to 12+AM. My gawd. That was incredible. By mid noon i was stoned. Hahaha. Went to sing for my friend or rather previosuly my cathecitsm teacher's wedding early in the morning. It was a gorgeous wedding at St Theresa's church. I did solo for the ending hymn. I was very very glad I could for her. After the wedding the reception was really fun. Met alot of old cathecists friends I'd not seen in ages. Everyone there kept saying how well i sang...DAMN paiseh. Even on Sunday when i sang for the Litany of the Saints for baptism, I had alot of those compliments. WAHHH. Thank you Lord. I am grateful. =)

Me , my bro and mum headed down to town for some shopping and mum was so nice to get me another pair of jeans and a realli nice shirt blouse! hehehehee. Thanks mum!!! More to come in KL!!! wahahaha. I headed off to live class in the eveing and then for supper AGAIN after tht. Madness.

kay, i'd go as far back as Saturday. i can't remember wad else happened after tht. hahaha

Lastly. I made someone really happy today. =) In turn, he made me really happy. ;p
Happy Birthday Nel : )
I'm happy I touched someone else. I wanted to.

No, it was not the excellent company. i seem to be drifting in between for now. It's like clearer and than not. So wad. I'm happy .

olympus digital will say...some memories are better than love...and then "snap" the photo is taken...memories are love. and sometimes onli the memories can live.

i miss the dude. happy birthday in advance, you.

i dont know wad i'd do without her. officially introducing my sister, meliza.

i miss tht nite very much. it was one of those nites...like a dream...tht realli happened...but never mite happen again.

and she dreams again...

it's 4am, and I'm stubbornly staying up, for Gawd knows what reason. I wonder if my dreams will be nice tonight.

I want to hear his voice so much. I want to meet him so much. I miss him. Why. again and again. why.


.....huge dilema. and im typing nonsense here. utter nonsense...like...

lalalala....blah blah blah....im going mad not slping..having nothing to do.


oh help.

and she dreams again...

Ive been wayy lazy to blog these days. I have no idea what's happening. hahahaaa. I'm well known for being a regular BLOGGER. Now, I can't even be bothered to read blogs! ARGGGH. So I force myself to, coz I don't wana miss out on my friends daily entries. Some of them I can only check on them thru my blogs, like HOLLY. yeah...=)

So, here I am. Choir is getting very busy. We are combining with another choir to sing for Xmas midnight mass. Loads of stuff to practise. We had a practise yesterday with them for four hrs.

Alot of loved ones are passing away. Ive lost count how many this year. Alot of seriously ill pple too. Oh lord, please watch over them and their families.

I'm attending two weddings this month. How nice. : ) Both of them are my cathecitsm teachers. :p How sweet. Two teachers in God's love, start off their new journies of Love together. =)

I'm damn sian now...and tired too. I'm feeling quite lost...about some issues at hand. I can only leave it to God. hat he wants me to do after this, what he wants me to become, who he wants me to meet and continue being friends with...who he wants to take away from me...everything.

Ever felt yr family became to much for you to handle? The word and meaning behind family...is smth so overwhelming sometimes.

signed off,

mel

and she dreams again...

BECOZ of faithful readers like sis, Cheryl, Jayne, Richieeeee!, Angie, Vic, and now even Sar and the siblings...and i may not noe who else...i've gotten off my LAZY butt to write here again :p wheeheehee...spank me! hahahaha...omg. wth..hahaha...

Went for my first lesson of "live class" today. its a class that teaches you how to perform live on stage, besides singing. i really enjoyed my first lesson. made some crazy friends there too.

I'd like to thank Richie for the songs he's been sending me recently. thanks so much dude. you rawk.

I'd like to thank sis and cheryl too...for yr crazy chat sessions...hwahwahwa : ) Sis, the hooberstank and bbmak songs totally rawk! Harry, thanks for Electrico's I Want You!! : )

Oh yea, RICH, I'm sorri becoz of restrictions, I doubt i can go for yr KICK ASS party on Nov 23rd 11pm...oh shit...where is it again?? Yea, I cant go. IM SORRI.

Okays now...hmm what else. I've been too lazy to load pics...nothing new la...except the hair but you all have seen tht alreadi.

OHH! yes, I went rollerblading with Harry yesterday, after many many yrs. Wow, blading is soo shiok. Totally enjoyed myself. Then ate at ECP. Tht was great too. Harry wrote me a damn touching testi. Can cry. Oh yes, Richie wrote one like tht too...it's somewhere on the second page now. I think I'd never forget tht. My godbro is happily bombing my testiiis...again....hahahaha

and she dreams again...

Lerping couldnt confirm today's outing. no more plans for the day.

Mel, Cheryl, Jayne, Yunwen are presently having dinner and going clubbing at zouk later. i can't go..............

I just mopped the floor.

Mum was NAGING AND SCOLDING away again for the umpteen time about my top i bought, just coz it was a little pricey.

So stay home, and nurse a boring self. damn.

I'm getting absoulteky annoyed and irritated with all the things i must do this way, and cannot do tht way, and how i must go about everything the way they want it. im sick and tired of aving fears in me, tht they will be angry. I'm realli fuming and there's nothing I can do about it. One day, everything's gonna explode.

I need a bath now.

and she dreams again...

Let me tell you what is VERY important in an f&b outlet. COMMUNICATION. If an organisation has too many haeds, and communication DOESNT go ard at all, what kinda screwed up organisation is tht ANYWAY. thanks alot, for totally hecking care about me and my sister as new staff.. From the first day, which was yesterday, we werent even so fussed over like the way a new staff should. We didnt feel welcome. Then there's no food coz we didnt work more than x number of hours. THX, but you suck big time. pay so low and so little work. Byu the time i earn anything, i'd have spent more than tht just to get to and fro work, and eat out. Who bitches about thier own pple on the first day of knowing a new staff? Even the old staff STILL dont feel comfortable working there. 'NUFF said.

and she dreams again...

I just feel horribly sick today. Outing with sis and Harry got cancelled. Angel, sorri too that we didnt meet up also.Llast night, i slept at 1130pm. everyone was suprised. my body felt damn late..the kind of feeling you have when it's already 4am, and you're still up. I slept till 1pm today, got up feeling really screwed up, took some vitamins, water, panadol, and headed straight back to sleep. (of coz not forgetting milo to keep away the hunger). Woke up again around 630pm, had dinner, and here I am now, typing my blog...STILL feeling like crap. Darn. Work starting on monday, and I'm cantoring again next sunday.How am i gonna sing tmr. BUGGER.

Looks like the fun night out next wed is a goner for me. Im so sorry gurls. AGAIN. It's damn frustrating. I wonder too, when I'll getta stay over at someone else's not becoz of work. i wonder when I'll getta go for a midnight show, without the family I wonder when I'll getta go for holiday without them too. AAgh. Gig night was one LUCKY night. nvm, for now, i'll have ta be patient. Anyways, now it's far better than before. Heh, I remember those horrible times two yrs back. At least now i get to go out alot more, and well, being home pretty late, before 12 is pretty ok now.......

I...keep dreaming of him. I dont know why. Ok, maybe I do. Two nights already. I KEEP dreaming of him. Shit. I keep replaying his songs, but I don't understand why it was so easy for me to just...ok...DELETE. But I'm also not thiking of that someone else anymore. Im serious. It's just him, him, him. Oh fuck.

and she dreams again...

What have I been doing the last two days? MORE shopping :) I have been spending way too much for my own good. have stopped today, after changing my jeans, and buying a new pair of very adorable bed room slippers :p i shall leave the rest of the purchasing to my mum this weekend !! *hurhurhur*.

i went out with sis and Jayne again yesterday! The interview at swensens went well, and I would like to thank faith who recommended me to her friend. Za and I will be starting work on monday =) The work shifts and expectations are quite demaninding, but i'd give it a shot anyway! We went shopping and after that headed down to meet Jayne and Cheryl
baboon...hehehe...Cheryl dun angry kk! I took pics at the RAV pub we went to...actually..i was ok with the place, except tht it took damn long to start ( this peagent we went for). I headed home shortly, as I wasn't expected home too late yesterday.

Today, decided on joining the "live class" by the backstage. Am gonna earn the money to pay dad back as well. This is my dream, and I want to have some responsibility towards it as well. Shld be starting next week, together with work. Swensens boss hasnt msg me and sis...hope they do so by tmr, and that cartel gets back to us for an interview. i want tht job .

Today, went to cut my hair. I have a fringe now : ) I met Harriet for lunch at pasta mania at parkway. Saw some of my sec schl juniors. I'm outraged at the topics they were discussing. tsk tsk. terrible girls. The food was freaking good, coz Harry was LATE. hahahah =) nvm, that. It was raining heavily again today, and we were stuck at parkway. Ended up cutting hair pretty late. Due to rain, and I was pretty tired, decided to hang ard with harry till it was time to go home for IDOL. heheheh =) thanks harry....sorri abt yr shoess!

So, thats abt all for these two days. Gonna sleep in tmr. take care everyone!

Ps: i deleted the folder. my phone now has much more space. How irnonic, tht i got rid of it, after keeping them all. it has more msgs in the folder...but has only been ard for a short while. The other folder, which i cant bear to delete, has lesser, but been withme for ages. oh well. some things cant be explained.

hahaha mac...cool hah..hahaha....free publicity man...

ahh...my beer ...at bar none...<__>

chin chow...yummy...at the restaurant called 'different taste"

A Cool breezy night.... I could sit at this bridge forever...

OMG... I've waited this long...two plus yrs...and I FINALLY can post pics..keeke...SLOW but never too late! Thank you Jayne!!!!

love, mel

and she dreams again...

-Spent alot today, and wernt for an audition-

Actually the order of events is the exact opposite. : ) I went for an audition at The Backstage this afternoon. They are tapping into the live performers market. They are trainining people who can already sing, to become artists with them, to become live performers. They are tapping into the market that has hardly got anything yet in Singapore. The audition went well, except that I needed my lyrics, as I had only memorised last night. After talking alot with them and the audition, plus my Xmas CD as my portfolio, they were very impressed. I'm probably starting with them. =) Wish me luck. I have to prove to them, by the end of two months, that i can perform live. then i'll be slotted for all the concerts next yr! *sweatdrop*. i wana do this so much!

After that, I went to orchard with my babe, meliza, my SISTER. Had a whole day of shopping! *the ultimate nightmare for guys* Ended up buying quite alot of stuff. I won't complain i'm broke, coz I know it. =) But, I spent wisely none the less. It still came up to quite a bit. Oh well, once in a while is ok. ;p

I'll be going for a job interview tmr. This is where I'll get my money for the holidays. I really hope me and sis get the job. tmr meeting at sam's too at night, so we're gonna shop again to kill time. I do need to collect some stuff from orchard anyway. All the best to me! Olright, I'm gonna try upload photos here. soon.

and she dreams again...

Happy All Saints Day =)

Had a great yummy dinner with godbro nick, sis meliza, brian and freda after mas today. pizza hut dinner. Totally rawks. =>

I'm going for an audition in less than 13 hours and I havent even started preparing. hahaha. Ain't I so cool? *alrite, please don't puke all over my blog*. Heh. Wish me luck. Meeting my sis after tht, like we're not sick of each other at all. Also meeting her on wednesday before our church meeting Will be going for an interview on that day as well.. Thursday I'm gonna cut my hair, and prob hang out with mum. =p

No other plans yet, but happi as it is for now.

Hmm i finally understand tonight. Why it didn't happen. Oh well, no point thinking so much about it right? =) I'll survive!!

Results will be out 12th November!

see ya all! *heads off to prepare for audition*

--a friend of mine...make tht a few friends of mine are rather down. please, pray for them, coz i'm worried.--

and she dreams again...

THANK YOU LORD.
I prayed. My family prayed. I told myself I have to do this. i want to do this, to praise his name, and to thank him for evething he has done for me, esp this week. I got a bit nervous again, before cantoring today, but guess wad? I went up there, sang out, with no fear, and i finally, after four times of cantoring, FINALLY sang properly, and well. That means i wasn't on auto mode. i knew what I was doing up there. i could control my voice, the dynamics and everything.Everyone said I sang very well today. i'm really greatful Lord.

This week has been awesome. I'll repeat that, because I jut don't believe it. Monday thru to Sunday, everyday was good. Everyday was special. I'm really very happy. =). Happy halloween everybody! Tmr is all saints day. It's gonna be another great week. ;p